Jess ah, thanks for ya advice.. Ya.. Helps alot.. =] U also ah.. I am sure u will pass ur maths.. Hmm.. If can hor, I pei you 2 go take results lor.. Give ur some luck! Wan anot?

Today evening meet Ben for dinner.. Then came my house.. He was sleeping then I was rushing my assignments.. Hmm.. He tml got outfield so must get maximum rest.. Gee! Think we going that dead bodies exhibition this weekend..! 6-8pm $9 right? Sounds fun fun fun! They say mostly is male bodies.. Then Peifeng told me she saw 1 female pregnant body and then her stomach was like kana cut, then cn see the foetus inside.. Then she say some organs they let u touch? She and tt siao char bo, shiling damn power leh.. They stay there for over 3 hours plus.. Looking at the dead bodies.. Haha!

Tml not going with Jean to Sakae le.. *smirks* Can go home sleep liaox.. Just chat with szewei online just now.. Hmm.. Hope everything goes smoothly for her this year.. She say she's gonna go Perth further her studies, hopefully next yr? Hmm.. If got time, then when I go over to visit ah Ben, can also shun bian visit her.. =] Cheers gurl! Jia you for ur attachment!

Tomlo is a 9 to 3 day.. Just finished doing my group discussion template and researching on the internet for my project? I am so uncomfortable around my poly friends.. Haha! FM 98.7 is my best companion! Nvm.. Better dun start again ahbo it will never end..

< Jess > Cheers.. Jia you for ur work! Smile always gurl.. =]

< Pekhar > Rmb what I said.. We grit our teeth and go through this together..!

< Peixuan > Dun fan le.. Life's not always smooth sailing.. Sometimes u got to take things in ur stride and learnt how to handle them.. Whatever happen, u still got us by ur side.. Got any prob, must tell us ok? Dun keep to urself..

< Jialing > Yea.. We r all so damn busy with our stupid projs.. But what to do? Expected le.. Haha! Just haf to endure thrg this and do our best lo..

God! Waking up at 730 tml.. Hoo Hoo! Nvm nvm! Look on the bright side.. At least got 98.7 to pei me to go sch.. Cheers! Going to print my stuffs and then slp le.. =]

Hi.. Tired until siao.. Gonna fall sick liao.. Today he stupid statistics tutor keep picking on me because I never bring my lecture notes.. Kao! Then she was saying, " what a waste, u have to copy all again just becos u didnt bring ur notes" Then I was like, "mm" then hack care hnd her liao.. And then looked down and do my own things..

Whole day was raining.. What kind of weather this is? Realli starting to hate this weather.. Hope this type of weather faster pass.. Hmm.. Doorbell rang.. Sheane came to tutor my bro liao.. Dogs damn noisy.. Barking n barking.. Feel like throwing them away.. Haha..

Ben dont know doing what, never reply my sms.. Hmm.. Missed him alot.. How can i stop missing a person so so so so much? Gee.. I feel an urgent need to msg him like every 2-3 hours.. This has become almost like a habit.. Going sushi buffet with Jean on thurs afternoon.. Mayb going.. I feel so stressed up, I cannot breathe.. This semester every day also got tutorial homework to do.. My work is also getting more n more difficult.. same as pekhar.. And I am getting less and less motivated.. No no.. This cannot happen!!!

Wait till I eat finish my dinner then think of way to make myself more motivated again.. -_-"

Hey dudes! Sorry I took so long to update my diary..! Haha! It has been quite a tiring day for me.. At least I get to meet my dear in the afternoon.. Went orchard to meet him and then went for lunch/dinner at Pasta Mania.. Anyway, there's this movie called " cheaper by the dozen".. It's damn nice lor.. Damn funny and damn worth ur money to watch.. Laugh till peng!

Ben applied for the aussie thing today.. Thought I would feel very very sad and moody.. But I did not.. Perhaps I have already accepted the fact and are well prepared for the challenge.. Heng I got ur this bunch of gd friends by my side ahbo I really is dont know what to do lor..

Tml is an average day.. Not too long not too short.. 12-5.. Ok lah.. Still quite long.. Haha.. Haiz.. Just said goodbye to dear online.. So yi yi bu she... I missed him alot.. Ur take care okie? I going to sleep now.. Gonna have sore throat soon.. Damn the weather..! Gd night dudez.. Nitez..!

I dont understand humans.. I just dont do... What are brotherly ties and kinship for? Are they just there for no purpose?

What are wives and children for? For you to keep at home all day? You havent fulfil your responsibility well..

I look down on you..

Hi people! Long time nv update sia me! Got miss me anot? Haha.. Paisay ah! My laptop tio virus, my whole taskbar went missing and then my laptop keeps hanging.. Bo Bian, send my laptop for reformating on i think, monday. Then collect it on tuesday lo. Since then, dun really dare to anyhow download things liaox! Haha! Cost me $21 to get my laptop fixed at NP service centre. -_-"

Just nw ate BBQ steamboat for reunion dinner.. The BBQ thingy spoil when eat until halfway. Yuan lai the extension wire spoiled. Haha. KNS. so sao xing! Didnt ate much really. Felt quite full after a while.. Yesterday night went chinatown with my parents, not much new year atmosphere really. Just alot of people. Squeeze here squeeze there. I think people cannot see me in the crowd since I so short! Haha! :p

Anyway I got to submit my assignments online soon. Realli lazy sia. It's thursday tomolo. Time passes so fast man! Anyway that time went far east with u guys was really enjoyable! Long time never had such a gd time! Hope we meet again soon ok? And go take neoprints at HMV! thats my fav place to take neoprints cos i like the neoprint machines there! Manping peixuan pekhar, ur know which one righTTT!! hahaa! Hmmz.. Hope tml cn see my dar dar! OoOoOo!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO U GUYS! PX, THE THING STILL ON MAH?

Yo guys! I just watched "SLUGS" on channel 5. It's disgusting. Yucks. Wanna puke liaox. Yeah tomolo saturday liaox! Finally! This week's passing kinda slow. CNY here soon hor? But kinda dont have new year atmosphere. I think this year's new year most sianz liaox. Like not much deco's and atmosphere one lo. So not interesting. SARAH, think after u deco ur class, u pro liaox hor? Go and deco the streets! Get some atmosphere mah! Haha!

Well, today's adventure rope session basically no climbing all that stuffs. Learnt how to tie rope and slip inside the "dont know what that thing is". It's the safety thing that u tie ard ur butt there one. Haha. The instructor said today just learnt how to tie one simple knot, but then in the end, i find it quite confusing leh. No affinity with ropes, i guess. Then the gurl I just knew keep teaching me how to tie. Haha. Funny. Whatever. Ask ben teach me better ahbo next week go then dont know how to tie xia suay.

We went "Camp David" opp NP there. Just cross the bridge can liaox. Got housing there one. But then quite hot lor. I think we got to stand on a 3 or 4 storey's high pole and then jump to catch onto a pole where u do chin ups that kind. Where got strength? Haha. Confirm stand there wear diaper and cry. No lah. Just challenge myself ba. See how lah. -_-
Anyway, the PE t shirt was damn BIG lo. Wear liaox also makes me feel paisay. OoOps!

Just nw went for sushi with Ben at westmall. Anyway just nw hor, at NP, just b4 i went for PE, got Channel U people come to shoot their variety show thingy leh. Got that guo liang, that news presenter on chn u and i think 2 familiar faces on chn u which I dont know their names. Then the crew people shouted, "3...2...1....", then there I was, walking right behind them to the toilet. Dont know if they got pai dao wo mah! Haha! Damn stupid actually. I initially tot they were the mass comm people, then one of em wore the chinese new yr costume. Very er xin.

Oh no! My "C" button really no hope le! -_-"
"GAO SHE ME GUI!!!!!!!!"
*pulls my hair out*

Just checked my mail. Kao. Got 30 odd mails unchecked. Took me a long time to get it done. Keep yawning today to get enough "water" to rewet my contact lenses. Wonder if I wore the contact lenses on the wrong side. Kind of blurry in one eye. Makes me have a headache.

Just received a stupid major project today. -Computer Info Processing- *stressed* Starting to feel the stress-ness now. Haha. Went home with Cheryl through the back gate today. Hm. Learnt a new route today. Lol! Listening to Tanya Chua's song right now. Really soothes me. =]

Will b having PE tomolo. Not looking forward to that of course. Kao! Must wear that blue PE shirt & back shorts. I think I will b wearing PE shirt & Jeans to sch 1st then change into the shorts later. Got to reach early tomolo for LMS class. I dunwanna get fined. Already no $$ liaox.

Ben's at outfield now. Been thinking of him alot today. Gee. Let me bear with the torture for just one more day. And it will b saturday soon. Bear with it..................

I just reached home not long ago and already I am feeling so tired even though it's a 12 to 5 timetable today. Hey. I dont know why but now kinda like a loner. No exact gd friends in poly and no exact no gd friends in poly. Xiu ting talks way too loud and her actions are very big. Abit buay ta han. I dun think she realise it. Today had lunch with grace, regina, xiuting, mun yee and shuling. Shared a waffle with regina.

Didnt really ate much as I am kinda on a small diet plan now. Haha. Crazy uh? Meet Cheryl to go sch and go home together. I kinda missed Jean they all. Missed crapping with em. Although still friends all that, but dun hang out togather as a grp with em. Pat brough a Lavenus spray for me to try it out. It's for severly damaged hair. She said it's good. Realli soften my hair. Think I am gonna go for that. My "C" button on my laptop is still not getting any better. Where the hell do I get this done.

Misssssssssssssssssed my Dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

S i Pekhar always urge me to update when u never update urself.. Pooei! Kan bu qi ni! Haha! Nw sitting at my sch's canteen with most of my classmates. All sit there surf net. Haha! Actually also quite boring lah. AIyo.

I also haven buy my new year's clothes leh Pekhar.. We can go buy together actually.. Haha! When u free ah? Hmm.. I buay ta han today.. Quite moody in d morning.. After couselling myself abit.. Seems alot better.. Haiz.. Mian qiang hai cheng de xia qu! Feel like transferring to another class. Boo!

Gotta faster post this ahbo the classmates behind see. AIyo! Alot people at the canteen lo. Haiz. What a boring afternoon. Yesterday went queensway, beach rd with Ben. Mostly spent on the road. Cos he took alot of wrong turns. ANyway shiet! Cos my 'C' button kana like falling out like tt..

Guess what PE I ended up with? ADVENTURE ROPE Ur must be wondering how the hell did i end up with this since I am not an adventurous person in the 1st place. Here goes..

Was sitting in the lecture hall listening to the stupid lecture about PE stuffs. PE stuffs must tok for about 1hr plus. I buay ta han u know? I keep fidgeting and yawning. Then finally, came the selection of the PE part. Me and Jean wanted to join aerobics or dancesports. Too bad lah! Think already no more vacancy. Only got a few kind of sports left. Badminton, soccer, volleyball, fitness and conditioning, lifesaving, swimming, adventure etc etc. Oh btw, Loretta joined fitness and conditioning. Do different kind of sports at each pratice one. Really suit her. Can try everything. Then the guy was saying like, if you want join volleyball, sit in the 1st 3 rows, soccer last 3 rows etc etc. Then when he said "GO!" All people were running like mad. I actually is walk one.

But then I kan chiong liao see them all run. Bo bian. Hop lai hop qu hop dao tennis there. WAHKAO! FULL HOUSE! Cannot! Hop to BADMINTON there also full house. Finally stand there and paisay with Jean and Wendy. Then we go ADVENTURE there sit. Bo bian. Adventure only accepting 20 studs for that session. The rest accepting 30studs. So I am one of the lucky 20 lor. Actually I am fine with it lah. Cos been wanting to try adventure thingy. I tell ur hor. Maybe I go join that shake ge bom bom cca man - dancesports- Go Uni must have CCA mah. So must plan for future liaoz. Next fri must wear PE attire go sports complex. Kind of hald dreading and half looking forward.

Hahaha! Anyway earlier on got a class is LMS - Life Management Skills- The teacher damn fierce. If forgot to off hp to silent and if hp suddenly ring, 1 ring will cost $5. Then if late, 1 min cost $5. Die liao. Then play games lo. Made some friends le. =] My day's okie. Haha. How's ur one? Hey I love Kelly Clarkson - The trouble with loving. Nice song leh. Going to eat liaoz. Curry and lian ou soup! SLURP! Tml saturday le! HOOOoOrAyYYyY!! Stay happy all of ya' alright? Cheers! YAMMmMm sEeNgGg!!

Da-da! I'm back! Haha! Just reached home. Went to have lunch with one of my IS module friend. Other class one. We went Jurong point. Keep crapping and then talking. Was fun! =] Then when we walked to the interchange, got a guy approached us. He was promoting somperfumes and then he came up to me and said " wa, your eyes got colour one ah?" Then I said "ah" Then I was thinking wahkau eh.. Xiang xia ren!

Then after that,e he asked me to help him take the sample perfume and then he sprayed one of it onto his index finger and then rubbed on me n my frend's hand. Asked us to smell whether nice anot. Then i feel it's quite nice lo. My friend said damn smelly. Haha. Diff tastes. Then I said" sorry sorry, we dunwan buy" Then he said "ok,what got time go bugis there c this perfume cos got promo" then i said "okok" then he said again" i think ur eyes col very nice" Then i said "xie xie" hahaha! BOLIAOLISTIC!
Had biz statistics lecture today. The lecturer more suitable to be a chinese teacher or a design & tech teacher. Dressed until so untidy. His looks really doesnt look like he knows statistics. *cham le, no hope in stats le* Haha. But then he explained until quite clearly lo, gave many examples.

Ok great! Tomolo I'm gonna select my PE. and somemore I'm the last class to be choosing. Confirm all those not so hot sports left for us. I so damn "HAPPY"! dont know if can get aerobics anot leh. HOPE SO ba. Help me pray. i hope i am not getting dancesports. U know what's tt? Those like cha cha like tt? A guy and gurl partner and then wear those skimpy skimpy clothes and shake until like their bum bum gonna drop. SHIET!

Yeah! At home now! Finally told Jean that I am changing proj group. Ok. She just said ok and asked which group I changing to. Also asked her to help me tell Pat and Tao. Kind of a big stone take off my heart. Now chatting with her lo. Still gd friends. She asked me join same PE with her although diff class. Cos we same time. Will b joining aerobics.

Ben's at outfied, only will b back tonight. Tomolo 10-5pm. Got 3 hours break in between. Hey Hoo! Got no reply still. PX, JESSIE, PEKHAR, ur can make it for lunch tml mah? I also calling Jiewei. Cos his lunch break 1-3pm. I got his timetable! Haha! AMAZING RIGHT?

Okie. Gonna bathe soon I think. Nothing for me to do. Staying at home cn b quite boring. AH! Ur wan go clementi to eat? Since there quite near for SP & NP mah.. Can gif us enuff time to get back to poly. Aiyah. Ur better reply me hor or I KILL YOU ALL..!! Bleah!! Cheers!! =]

Reached home at around 10 plus in the morning just now. Had Micro-Economics lecture just now. Nothing much. Pretty related to Macro-Economics but then some part bits and there dont quite understand. Nvm, Will try to read up when free. Also must called Joanne up and asked if she got any textbooks wanna exchange anot.

My day was pretty ok. I guess I have already drift off from Pat, Jean & Tao Jing. Haha. Weird uh? Still friends lah but then didnt tok much lo. I am gonna change grp to Weibin, Grace and Xiu Ting's Grp. U know there's this gurl Xiu ting.. She looks very studious all that lo. Her fashion style is although abit or biang. Like wear until wanna go to work like tt. As in a big piece of cloth wrapped around her like a sweater. Then her actions abit BIG lor. I was in the same class with her for one of the like CME module like that. Then once, we walked out of the tutorial room, walked to the lift with my other friends. Then she saw a lizard or whatever was that perched on the elevator the press button there. Then she was like screaming lo. I was so paisay. Then we went into the lift. A guy asked my other friend " ur friend ah?" Then i really can feel myself blushing leh.

Then my class people kinda like "pai chi" her lo. Then I am like very fair lah. They like to tok about people. Then I was like. Didnt tok bt them lor. Rather i treat em as my friends lo. Cos I feel if u judge em becos of like that, really is not fair lo. Bitches u know! That's why I dont like em. Then I also nv tok much to em nowadays. Whatever! *shrugs* Anyway just now got a msg from Ben which really makes me confudes emotionally. He that time went for the interview for the schlorship thingy mah. Then he thought he couldnt get the schloarship cos the interviewers were like, twisting whatever he said lo. Just nw he said his friend told him that think he got get the schloarship to Australia. But then he just kept quiet about it 1st lah cos not yet confirmed mah.

On one hand, I feel very happy for him. On the other hand, I feel so sad. Or should I say I rather he dont go. But i know if like that, very selfish mah. But I cannot help thinking this way lo. Haiz. I really hate myself for this. Dont know when he's going also. He said they giving him until 2005. That means it's between this year end or next year lo. It's gonna be fast. I cannot help thinking of all the negative sides.

Oh ya, forgot to mention! Just nw when lecture finished right, Jean they all asked me want go KTV anot. Then I said cannot, cos' my mum was sick, wanted to go home and pei her. She was like, giving me some dirty look b4 turning away lo. But the truth was my mum was really sick lo! What a Biatch! Talking about my mum, *shakes head*, says she's always feeling giddy. See doctor le. Doc said her nerve at dont know where very weak. Hope she can recover soon! Ur must be giddy after seeing all these huh? Keke..

Okie lah.. quite long liaox.. Can last your eyes for a while.. Haha! Jessie, I heard u wed off huh? Wanna come out lunch? Lemme see.. Wed.. Aiyah.. Dont know got tutorials anot.. Anyway u wed can make it for lunch mah? Takey Carey People! Muaccckkksss...

It's Saturday today. I cannot believe sch is gonna reopen in 1 day time. My cousin stayed overnight at my house and we drank the e33. Abit hot hot when drink liaox but basically ok lo. She was like, complaining of a headache all that. Haha. Lousy! Her face red until dont know like what. Haha.
Hai. Just nw when I was sleeping, my mind was complaining to itself. Oh yeah. Stupid monday is gonna be here soon. I couldnt sleep really well. Was crapping with my cousin about our level of sianness tml night. Me ah.. Ur better not call me or what.. Cos I confirm climax of sianz-ness.. Pooei..
My lecture starts at 8am on Monday. Gotta wake up at ard 6 somethin to do my sutpid hair and pick out a stupid outfit for the day. Hmm.. Sobz.. I cannot seem to stop complaining.. Is there any pill to shut my mouth up?
I really hope everything goes well on MONDAY. Later gonna meet Ben. Wanted to go town but then dont actually have the mood right now. Wanted to buy some new clothes for Monday. Aiyah. See how lah.
Ur take care hor and happy sch reopening hor.. =]

Oh yes! Today gonna spend so little time with --- . He asked me if I let him go bowling every friday with his colts club friends. What can I say? NO! CANNOT GO! I just said go lor.. Already can sense some of my unhapppy tone there.
I realli feel I am so narrow minded. Though alot better than in the past. Why the hell cant i just let him have his personal time without thinking too much into it? WHY WHY WHY? I immediately called Pekhar and asked her for advice & also at the same time give her some advice on her course thingy. Also gives me time to cool down. Why am I so worked up? For goodness sake, I just feel like giving myself a BIG FAT TIGHT SLAP on my face! Boo Hoo HoO!
So we just talk it out calmly. Didnt act so rashed as last time. Good good. A gd improvement. Later gonna pei him FIX his car thingy and then after that at ard evening time, meet my cousin to pei her go cut her hair. Have to find some thing to clogged out my stupid brain to prevent me from thinkin too much into it and just feeling damn miserable with no reason.
Okie. Gosh. I am done complaining.

I can't believe that sch's gonna reopen soon. I can't imagine facing all my friends. All friends yes.. But no gd friends.. It's so hard to find a 'true' friend in NP. What do i do with my current textbooks? Throw meh? I think haf to exchange with some other people. Waste my time to do this kinda thingy.
Just woke up not long ago. Spent my countdown with the TV. Interesting uh? All not free then ai mai ai mai like that. Might as well dont go. Hai. Yeah. Back to the topic. I realise I still have a wardrobe of the same clothes. Except for a few new ones. What the hell man?!? Like that how to have gd mood to go to sch? I need new clothes in order to have gd mood man!
At the very least, my hair can kinda cheer me up abit. Anyway I post some of the pics in the MY YAHOO! PICTURES ALBUM
Later gonna meet Ben. Maybe some mini shopping to get myself prepared for sch reopening. Heng he fri,sat & sun is free. No going back to camp! YEAH! Yesh. MON is my worst day in 2004. POOEI!

Jess ah, thanks for ya advice.. Ya.. Helps alot.. =] U also ah.. I am sure u will pass ur maths.. Hmm.. If can hor, I pei you 2 go take results lor.. Give ur some luck! Wan anot?

Today evening meet Ben for dinner.. Then came my house.. He was sleeping then I was rushing my assignments.. Hmm.. He tml got outfield so must get maximum rest.. Gee! Think we going that dead bodies exhibition this weekend..! 6-8pm $9 right? Sounds fun fun fun! They say mostly is male bodies.. Then Peifeng told me she saw 1 female pregnant body and then her stomach was like kana cut, then cn see the foetus inside.. Then she say some organs they let u touch? She and tt siao char bo, shiling damn power leh.. They stay there for over 3 hours plus.. Looking at the dead bodies.. Haha!

Tml not going with Jean to Sakae le.. *smirks* Can go home sleep liaox.. Just chat with szewei online just now.. Hmm.. Hope everything goes smoothly for her this year.. She say she's gonna go Perth further her studies, hopefully next yr? Hmm.. If got time, then when I go over to visit ah Ben, can also shun bian visit her.. =] Cheers gurl! Jia you for ur attachment!

Tomlo is a 9 to 3 day.. Just finished doing my group discussion template and researching on the internet for my project? I am so uncomfortable around my poly friends.. Haha! FM 98.7 is my best companion! Nvm.. Better dun start again ahbo it will never end..

< Jess > Cheers.. Jia you for ur work! Smile always gurl.. =]

< Pekhar > Rmb what I said.. We grit our teeth and go through this together..!

< Peixuan > Dun fan le.. Life's not always smooth sailing.. Sometimes u got to take things in ur stride and learnt how to handle them.. Whatever happen, u still got us by ur side.. Got any prob, must tell us ok? Dun keep to urself..

< Jialing > Yea.. We r all so damn busy with our stupid projs.. But what to do? Expected le.. Haha! Just haf to endure thrg this and do our best lo..

God! Waking up at 730 tml.. Hoo Hoo! Nvm nvm! Look on the bright side.. At least got 98.7 to pei me to go sch.. Cheers! Going to print my stuffs and then slp le.. =]

Hi.. Tired until siao.. Gonna fall sick liao.. Today he stupid statistics tutor keep picking on me because I never bring my lecture notes.. Kao! Then she was saying, " what a waste, u have to copy all again just becos u didnt bring ur notes" Then I was like, "mm" then hack care hnd her liao.. And then looked down and do my own things..

Whole day was raining.. What kind of weather this is? Realli starting to hate this weather.. Hope this type of weather faster pass.. Hmm.. Doorbell rang.. Sheane came to tutor my bro liao.. Dogs damn noisy.. Barking n barking.. Feel like throwing them away.. Haha..

Ben dont know doing what, never reply my sms.. Hmm.. Missed him alot.. How can i stop missing a person so so so so much? Gee.. I feel an urgent need to msg him like every 2-3 hours.. This has become almost like a habit.. Going sushi buffet with Jean on thurs afternoon.. Mayb going.. I feel so stressed up, I cannot breathe.. This semester every day also got tutorial homework to do.. My work is also getting more n more difficult.. same as pekhar.. And I am getting less and less motivated.. No no.. This cannot happen!!!

Wait till I eat finish my dinner then think of way to make myself more motivated again.. -_-"

Hey dudes! Sorry I took so long to update my diary..! Haha! It has been quite a tiring day for me.. At least I get to meet my dear in the afternoon.. Went orchard to meet him and then went for lunch/dinner at Pasta Mania.. Anyway, there's this movie called " cheaper by the dozen".. It's damn nice lor.. Damn funny and damn worth ur money to watch.. Laugh till peng!

Ben applied for the aussie thing today.. Thought I would feel very very sad and moody.. But I did not.. Perhaps I have already accepted the fact and are well prepared for the challenge.. Heng I got ur this bunch of gd friends by my side ahbo I really is dont know what to do lor..

Tml is an average day.. Not too long not too short.. 12-5.. Ok lah.. Still quite long.. Haha.. Haiz.. Just said goodbye to dear online.. So yi yi bu she... I missed him alot.. Ur take care okie? I going to sleep now.. Gonna have sore throat soon.. Damn the weather..! Gd night dudez.. Nitez..!

I dont understand humans.. I just dont do... What are brotherly ties and kinship for? Are they just there for no purpose?

What are wives and children for? For you to keep at home all day? You havent fulfil your responsibility well..

I look down on you..

Hi people! Long time nv update sia me! Got miss me anot? Haha.. Paisay ah! My laptop tio virus, my whole taskbar went missing and then my laptop keeps hanging.. Bo Bian, send my laptop for reformating on i think, monday. Then collect it on tuesday lo. Since then, dun really dare to anyhow download things liaox! Haha! Cost me $21 to get my laptop fixed at NP service centre. -_-"

Just nw ate BBQ steamboat for reunion dinner.. The BBQ thingy spoil when eat until halfway. Yuan lai the extension wire spoiled. Haha. KNS. so sao xing! Didnt ate much really. Felt quite full after a while.. Yesterday night went chinatown with my parents, not much new year atmosphere really. Just alot of people. Squeeze here squeeze there. I think people cannot see me in the crowd since I so short! Haha! :p

Anyway I got to submit my assignments online soon. Realli lazy sia. It's thursday tomolo. Time passes so fast man! Anyway that time went far east with u guys was really enjoyable! Long time never had such a gd time! Hope we meet again soon ok? And go take neoprints at HMV! thats my fav place to take neoprints cos i like the neoprint machines there! Manping peixuan pekhar, ur know which one righTTT!! hahaa! Hmmz.. Hope tml cn see my dar dar! OoOoOo!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO U GUYS! PX, THE THING STILL ON MAH?

Yo guys! I just watched "SLUGS" on channel 5. It's disgusting. Yucks. Wanna puke liaox. Yeah tomolo saturday liaox! Finally! This week's passing kinda slow. CNY here soon hor? But kinda dont have new year atmosphere. I think this year's new year most sianz liaox. Like not much deco's and atmosphere one lo. So not interesting. SARAH, think after u deco ur class, u pro liaox hor? Go and deco the streets! Get some atmosphere mah! Haha!

Well, today's adventure rope session basically no climbing all that stuffs. Learnt how to tie rope and slip inside the "dont know what that thing is". It's the safety thing that u tie ard ur butt there one. Haha. The instructor said today just learnt how to tie one simple knot, but then in the end, i find it quite confusing leh. No affinity with ropes, i guess. Then the gurl I just knew keep teaching me how to tie. Haha. Funny. Whatever. Ask ben teach me better ahbo next week go then dont know how to tie xia suay.

We went "Camp David" opp NP there. Just cross the bridge can liaox. Got housing there one. But then quite hot lor. I think we got to stand on a 3 or 4 storey's high pole and then jump to catch onto a pole where u do chin ups that kind. Where got strength? Haha. Confirm stand there wear diaper and cry. No lah. Just challenge myself ba. See how lah. -_-
Anyway, the PE t shirt was damn BIG lo. Wear liaox also makes me feel paisay. OoOps!

Just nw went for sushi with Ben at westmall. Anyway just nw hor, at NP, just b4 i went for PE, got Channel U people come to shoot their variety show thingy leh. Got that guo liang, that news presenter on chn u and i think 2 familiar faces on chn u which I dont know their names. Then the crew people shouted, "3...2...1....", then there I was, walking right behind them to the toilet. Dont know if they got pai dao wo mah! Haha! Damn stupid actually. I initially tot they were the mass comm people, then one of em wore the chinese new yr costume. Very er xin.

Oh no! My "C" button really no hope le! -_-"
"GAO SHE ME GUI!!!!!!!!"
*pulls my hair out*

Just checked my mail. Kao. Got 30 odd mails unchecked. Took me a long time to get it done. Keep yawning today to get enough "water" to rewet my contact lenses. Wonder if I wore the contact lenses on the wrong side. Kind of blurry in one eye. Makes me have a headache.

Just received a stupid major project today. -Computer Info Processing- *stressed* Starting to feel the stress-ness now. Haha. Went home with Cheryl through the back gate today. Hm. Learnt a new route today. Lol! Listening to Tanya Chua's song right now. Really soothes me. =]

Will b having PE tomolo. Not looking forward to that of course. Kao! Must wear that blue PE shirt & back shorts. I think I will b wearing PE shirt & Jeans to sch 1st then change into the shorts later. Got to reach early tomolo for LMS class. I dunwanna get fined. Already no $$ liaox.

Ben's at outfield now. Been thinking of him alot today. Gee. Let me bear with the torture for just one more day. And it will b saturday soon. Bear with it..................

I just reached home not long ago and already I am feeling so tired even though it's a 12 to 5 timetable today. Hey. I dont know why but now kinda like a loner. No exact gd friends in poly and no exact no gd friends in poly. Xiu ting talks way too loud and her actions are very big. Abit buay ta han. I dun think she realise it. Today had lunch with grace, regina, xiuting, mun yee and shuling. Shared a waffle with regina.

Didnt really ate much as I am kinda on a small diet plan now. Haha. Crazy uh? Meet Cheryl to go sch and go home together. I kinda missed Jean they all. Missed crapping with em. Although still friends all that, but dun hang out togather as a grp with em. Pat brough a Lavenus spray for me to try it out. It's for severly damaged hair. She said it's good. Realli soften my hair. Think I am gonna go for that. My "C" button on my laptop is still not getting any better. Where the hell do I get this done.

Misssssssssssssssssed my Dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

S i Pekhar always urge me to update when u never update urself.. Pooei! Kan bu qi ni! Haha! Nw sitting at my sch's canteen with most of my classmates. All sit there surf net. Haha! Actually also quite boring lah. AIyo.

I also haven buy my new year's clothes leh Pekhar.. We can go buy together actually.. Haha! When u free ah? Hmm.. I buay ta han today.. Quite moody in d morning.. After couselling myself abit.. Seems alot better.. Haiz.. Mian qiang hai cheng de xia qu! Feel like transferring to another class. Boo!

Gotta faster post this ahbo the classmates behind see. AIyo! Alot people at the canteen lo. Haiz. What a boring afternoon. Yesterday went queensway, beach rd with Ben. Mostly spent on the road. Cos he took alot of wrong turns. ANyway shiet! Cos my 'C' button kana like falling out like tt..

Guess what PE I ended up with? ADVENTURE ROPE Ur must be wondering how the hell did i end up with this since I am not an adventurous person in the 1st place. Here goes..

Was sitting in the lecture hall listening to the stupid lecture about PE stuffs. PE stuffs must tok for about 1hr plus. I buay ta han u know? I keep fidgeting and yawning. Then finally, came the selection of the PE part. Me and Jean wanted to join aerobics or dancesports. Too bad lah! Think already no more vacancy. Only got a few kind of sports left. Badminton, soccer, volleyball, fitness and conditioning, lifesaving, swimming, adventure etc etc. Oh btw, Loretta joined fitness and conditioning. Do different kind of sports at each pratice one. Really suit her. Can try everything. Then the guy was saying like, if you want join volleyball, sit in the 1st 3 rows, soccer last 3 rows etc etc. Then when he said "GO!" All people were running like mad. I actually is walk one.

But then I kan chiong liao see them all run. Bo bian. Hop lai hop qu hop dao tennis there. WAHKAO! FULL HOUSE! Cannot! Hop to BADMINTON there also full house. Finally stand there and paisay with Jean and Wendy. Then we go ADVENTURE there sit. Bo bian. Adventure only accepting 20 studs for that session. The rest accepting 30studs. So I am one of the lucky 20 lor. Actually I am fine with it lah. Cos been wanting to try adventure thingy. I tell ur hor. Maybe I go join that shake ge bom bom cca man - dancesports- Go Uni must have CCA mah. So must plan for future liaoz. Next fri must wear PE attire go sports complex. Kind of hald dreading and half looking forward.

Hahaha! Anyway earlier on got a class is LMS - Life Management Skills- The teacher damn fierce. If forgot to off hp to silent and if hp suddenly ring, 1 ring will cost $5. Then if late, 1 min cost $5. Die liao. Then play games lo. Made some friends le. =] My day's okie. Haha. How's ur one? Hey I love Kelly Clarkson - The trouble with loving. Nice song leh. Going to eat liaoz. Curry and lian ou soup! SLURP! Tml saturday le! HOOOoOrAyYYyY!! Stay happy all of ya' alright? Cheers! YAMMmMm sEeNgGg!!

Da-da! I'm back! Haha! Just reached home. Went to have lunch with one of my IS module friend. Other class one. We went Jurong point. Keep crapping and then talking. Was fun! =] Then when we walked to the interchange, got a guy approached us. He was promoting somperfumes and then he came up to me and said " wa, your eyes got colour one ah?" Then I said "ah" Then I was thinking wahkau eh.. Xiang xia ren!

Then after that,e he asked me to help him take the sample perfume and then he sprayed one of it onto his index finger and then rubbed on me n my frend's hand. Asked us to smell whether nice anot. Then i feel it's quite nice lo. My friend said damn smelly. Haha. Diff tastes. Then I said" sorry sorry, we dunwan buy" Then he said "ok,what got time go bugis there c this perfume cos got promo" then i said "okok" then he said again" i think ur eyes col very nice" Then i said "xie xie" hahaha! BOLIAOLISTIC!
Had biz statistics lecture today. The lecturer more suitable to be a chinese teacher or a design & tech teacher. Dressed until so untidy. His looks really doesnt look like he knows statistics. *cham le, no hope in stats le* Haha. But then he explained until quite clearly lo, gave many examples.

Ok great! Tomolo I'm gonna select my PE. and somemore I'm the last class to be choosing. Confirm all those not so hot sports left for us. I so damn "HAPPY"! dont know if can get aerobics anot leh. HOPE SO ba. Help me pray. i hope i am not getting dancesports. U know what's tt? Those like cha cha like tt? A guy and gurl partner and then wear those skimpy skimpy clothes and shake until like their bum bum gonna drop. SHIET!

Yeah! At home now! Finally told Jean that I am changing proj group. Ok. She just said ok and asked which group I changing to. Also asked her to help me tell Pat and Tao. Kind of a big stone take off my heart. Now chatting with her lo. Still gd friends. She asked me join same PE with her although diff class. Cos we same time. Will b joining aerobics.

Ben's at outfied, only will b back tonight. Tomolo 10-5pm. Got 3 hours break in between. Hey Hoo! Got no reply still. PX, JESSIE, PEKHAR, ur can make it for lunch tml mah? I also calling Jiewei. Cos his lunch break 1-3pm. I got his timetable! Haha! AMAZING RIGHT?

Okie. Gonna bathe soon I think. Nothing for me to do. Staying at home cn b quite boring. AH! Ur wan go clementi to eat? Since there quite near for SP & NP mah.. Can gif us enuff time to get back to poly. Aiyah. Ur better reply me hor or I KILL YOU ALL..!! Bleah!! Cheers!! =]

Reached home at around 10 plus in the morning just now. Had Micro-Economics lecture just now. Nothing much. Pretty related to Macro-Economics but then some part bits and there dont quite understand. Nvm, Will try to read up when free. Also must called Joanne up and asked if she got any textbooks wanna exchange anot.

My day was pretty ok. I guess I have already drift off from Pat, Jean & Tao Jing. Haha. Weird uh? Still friends lah but then didnt tok much lo. I am gonna change grp to Weibin, Grace and Xiu Ting's Grp. U know there's this gurl Xiu ting.. She looks very studious all that lo. Her fashion style is although abit or biang. Like wear until wanna go to work like tt. As in a big piece of cloth wrapped around her like a sweater. Then her actions abit BIG lor. I was in the same class with her for one of the like CME module like that. Then once, we walked out of the tutorial room, walked to the lift with my other friends. Then she saw a lizard or whatever was that perched on the elevator the press button there. Then she was like screaming lo. I was so paisay. Then we went into the lift. A guy asked my other friend " ur friend ah?" Then i really can feel myself blushing leh.

Then my class people kinda like "pai chi" her lo. Then I am like very fair lah. They like to tok about people. Then I was like. Didnt tok bt them lor. Rather i treat em as my friends lo. Cos I feel if u judge em becos of like that, really is not fair lo. Bitches u know! That's why I dont like em. Then I also nv tok much to em nowadays. Whatever! *shrugs* Anyway just now got a msg from Ben which really makes me confudes emotionally. He that time went for the interview for the schlorship thingy mah. Then he thought he couldnt get the schloarship cos the interviewers were like, twisting whatever he said lo. Just nw he said his friend told him that think he got get the schloarship to Australia. But then he just kept quiet about it 1st lah cos not yet confirmed mah.

On one hand, I feel very happy for him. On the other hand, I feel so sad. Or should I say I rather he dont go. But i know if like that, very selfish mah. But I cannot help thinking this way lo. Haiz. I really hate myself for this. Dont know when he's going also. He said they giving him until 2005. That means it's between this year end or next year lo. It's gonna be fast. I cannot help thinking of all the negative sides.

Oh ya, forgot to mention! Just nw when lecture finished right, Jean they all asked me want go KTV anot. Then I said cannot, cos' my mum was sick, wanted to go home and pei her. She was like, giving me some dirty look b4 turning away lo. But the truth was my mum was really sick lo! What a Biatch! Talking about my mum, *shakes head*, says she's always feeling giddy. See doctor le. Doc said her nerve at dont know where very weak. Hope she can recover soon! Ur must be giddy after seeing all these huh? Keke..

Okie lah.. quite long liaox.. Can last your eyes for a while.. Haha! Jessie, I heard u wed off huh? Wanna come out lunch? Lemme see.. Wed.. Aiyah.. Dont know got tutorials anot.. Anyway u wed can make it for lunch mah? Takey Carey People! Muaccckkksss...

It's Saturday today. I cannot believe sch is gonna reopen in 1 day time. My cousin stayed overnight at my house and we drank the e33. Abit hot hot when drink liaox but basically ok lo. She was like, complaining of a headache all that. Haha. Lousy! Her face red until dont know like what. Haha.
Hai. Just nw when I was sleeping, my mind was complaining to itself. Oh yeah. Stupid monday is gonna be here soon. I couldnt sleep really well. Was crapping with my cousin about our level of sianness tml night. Me ah.. Ur better not call me or what.. Cos I confirm climax of sianz-ness.. Pooei..
My lecture starts at 8am on Monday. Gotta wake up at ard 6 somethin to do my sutpid hair and pick out a stupid outfit for the day. Hmm.. Sobz.. I cannot seem to stop complaining.. Is there any pill to shut my mouth up?
I really hope everything goes well on MONDAY. Later gonna meet Ben. Wanted to go town but then dont actually have the mood right now. Wanted to buy some new clothes for Monday. Aiyah. See how lah.
Ur take care hor and happy sch reopening hor.. =]

Oh yes! Today gonna spend so little time with --- . He asked me if I let him go bowling every friday with his colts club friends. What can I say? NO! CANNOT GO! I just said go lor.. Already can sense some of my unhapppy tone there.
I realli feel I am so narrow minded. Though alot better than in the past. Why the hell cant i just let him have his personal time without thinking too much into it? WHY WHY WHY? I immediately called Pekhar and asked her for advice & also at the same time give her some advice on her course thingy. Also gives me time to cool down. Why am I so worked up? For goodness sake, I just feel like giving myself a BIG FAT TIGHT SLAP on my face! Boo Hoo HoO!
So we just talk it out calmly. Didnt act so rashed as last time. Good good. A gd improvement. Later gonna pei him FIX his car thingy and then after that at ard evening time, meet my cousin to pei her go cut her hair. Have to find some thing to clogged out my stupid brain to prevent me from thinkin too much into it and just feeling damn miserable with no reason.
Okie. Gosh. I am done complaining.

I can't believe that sch's gonna reopen soon. I can't imagine facing all my friends. All friends yes.. But no gd friends.. It's so hard to find a 'true' friend in NP. What do i do with my current textbooks? Throw meh? I think haf to exchange with some other people. Waste my time to do this kinda thingy.
Just woke up not long ago. Spent my countdown with the TV. Interesting uh? All not free then ai mai ai mai like that. Might as well dont go. Hai. Yeah. Back to the topic. I realise I still have a wardrobe of the same clothes. Except for a few new ones. What the hell man?!? Like that how to have gd mood to go to sch? I need new clothes in order to have gd mood man!
At the very least, my hair can kinda cheer me up abit. Anyway I post some of the pics in the MY YAHOO! PICTURES ALBUM
Later gonna meet Ben. Maybe some mini shopping to get myself prepared for sch reopening. Heng he fri,sat & sun is free. No going back to camp! YEAH! Yesh. MON is my worst day in 2004. POOEI!