hey guys.. i'm in the np library now.. with yvonne sitting at the table next to me.. she's reading a book! act classic! haha.. no la.. jk! i kept yawning today.. wondering if it's in me.. yawning practically every moment of my life.. i'm waiting for my other lms grp people to come here then we rehearse for the whole [awww] thing.. staying back when i actually could be home.. life is jus marvellous... wondering... perfect... lovely...!

had my excel test jus now.. woohoo! preparing to flunk the paper.. it's very difficult.. asking u to calculate operating income, do a one data variable chart and do a break even analysis? duh? the sample paper is not even tt hard.. hey ms faizah.. u cn jus go n die... if u ever see this, wonderful.. kick me out of the sch.. paisay.. too ji dong! haha! crap sia me!

ben's goin brunei this fri.. and i'm trying hard not to think bt it.. but basically there's no need to feel sad or whatsoever.. just for 3 weeks.. i'll just devote my time to my books... and lecture notes... :( *headache when i think bt notes n books*

i'm purely allergic to words, mainly alphabets..

one last thing, hon, i miss you.. if u ever should see this.. alot.. man..

was eating my mee which my parents bought from jurong.. and there there, almost ate finish.. then i saw a black black thing.. so i turned it and see what the hell it was.. end up a cockroach.. then i went to the toilet to vomit all i had ate.. amazing.. the pressure on my head was so great and for a moment, i thought my blood was all gonna burst out..

but! anyway.. damn the stall... i'm never ever gonna eat from there.. i'm gonna check my food thoroughly before i touched it in future.. bad luck..

darn, gonna study excel the whole day.. grr.. what a sunday..

it's 8am now and what am i doing here? haha.. these few days very very very very tired, i also dunnoe why.. so i kept on slping early.. yest slpt at 7pm until now.. amazing huh? later going sch then mr pon gonna revise us for our test.. kind of voluntary.. i guai huh? then after tt meet ms mao at ngee ann library study.. =]

cannot slack! this mon excel test, carries alot of percentage I THINK! shack!

ben going brunei this coming saturday.. for 3weeks.. actually gd timing also.. since i can use the time to study.. but i will b missing him so much.. and manping, that time u ask me eat roti prata is with celine they all right? i dunnoe her very well mah.. so i shy mah... dun dare to go.. i SHY ok.. lolx..! but then e prata also not nice one..

Anyway, i heard Jian Gui 2 the piao fang not bad leh... almost bai wan liaoz..! all becos of me lah...! did ur see act in e show? for ur info hor.. i am not the GHOSTS lor.. I am shuqi de........................ KA MO!! did ur c me? although not visible but i cn c ur looking at me thrg the screen...!!

yest went east coast with my honey. he slept on my thighs for ard 1 hr plus while i was looking at the planes passing by and the ships on the sea. wondering where the hell did those planes appear from and where did they come from? the 1st country that came to mind was vancouver. and i have no idea why. next i stared at the ships passing by. admiring the beautiful lights.

then saw 1 cockroach pulled my darling up by force. then i saw a rat! then pulled him up again! cos it was crawling damn fast towards us..! then nvm it ran away, then i slowly began to doze off... then i saw a CAT! kana we on very close terms with it like tt.. came to ben's feet there and slept beside his legs.. i was like, " wo gen ni hen shou meh?" act only sia..! then ok lor.. it went away after a while.. but was v funny and romantic though..! *wink wink*

today went to bt timah eat roti prata with my class people during break.. then cnt finish the prata, heng grace helped me eat a little.. shared "milo dinosaur" with cheryl.. alot of milo powder on the top one.. damn farni.. 1st time drinking.. but quite heaty.. then WALKED back to NP for micro tutorial.. ho ho ho.. so damn sweaty and hot by the time we reached class.. all our faces damn red.. so farni..

ok.. i realized my tests are getting nearer.. next week starting.. and what the hell? i haven even touch it yet... haiz.. i din know biz course so diff.. if not... i will not even choose this coz.. i will jus go to nursing instead.. nvm nvm.. since i'm already here, might as well... gen ta PIN LE!!!!! ur also jia you ar.. got time we go out study together lah? on anot? we go lib or what lo..

gee, i'm so tired. my jaws r aching and i feel like vomitting. right when i was listening to 98.7 while doing stats tutorial. i dunnoe if it's the stats hmwrk or the radio which made me feel naseous. my whole mind stopped functioning. mainly because this few days have been busy w project, but PHEW! presentation has finished!

Will b busy with the revision of my upcomin tests these few days.. I hate stats.. Gee.. But i've no choice, gotta buck up.. I think i'll head over to the study room or library during my free time to study. a quiet enviroment without any TVs and laptops is what i need.

yes, i've gotta buck up. I miss my darlin alot. he didnt sms me the whole day, which is understadable since he's busy. kept taking out e neoprints we took and kept staring at it. felt real happy when i hold it in my hands. lovey dopey. *thinking of him* oops!

yes, motivation pls stay, dun leave meeee......! ho ho ho..... =]

sorry guys to make all of you worry.. i'm alright now.. going to sch soon for lecture.. update later ok?

ur take care also... love all of ya..! =]

i've got gastric pain the whole day. i'm so tired. i'm so damn fucked up with life. i really find tt life is ugly.

and now there's some damn conflict btw my grp & the other grp. i'm jus so stressed up. i wonder whats the purpose of my existence sometimes. i just wish i can jus disappear from the face of earth.

is this the true human nature?

look guys, i just bathe and relaxing right now, not really relaxing.. thinking bt my projs.. i'm feeling better right now.. it's been such a long yet short day.. i felt better cos i got lotsa frens by my side and toking to em makes me feel good..

firstly, went to sch at ard 12 to meet "ms xiang" - yvoone.. and jasmi and pavitra and wen qi to print out our final report.. then we suddenly tot of a creative idea.. in e end we bought a hard case file and then put our report inside then we wrapped the thing up with a nice seashell pics wrapper and then we tied a balloon to it, on it written "to ms susan" which is our lms tutor's name.. everything was fun fun fun! i enjoyed myself through this process alot. i'm gonna miss this grp alot..

then went for s&w, instructor kept getting us to participate in the game cos we were like standing at the side and pratically yawning.. fun game.. gotta use 2 planks and then think of ways to get across blocks of round shape logs and then finally to a small square shape platform.. the whole lot of us(20+ people) must get onto the small platform.. b4 that, have to use the rope and swing like a monkey to the platform.. fun but hit my feet against the log.. ho ho!

then after that, he dismissed us at ard 4.15 cos it was raining.. big drops.. then me n jean n wendy ran the fastest to our bags and chiong all the way to the shelter.. then jean ask me wanna take taxi home anot, we sharing cab so i ok lor.. then met benedict koh on e way to take taxi, he was with his frens, all damn hip one, then he suddenly extended his long hand out and say "wah u poke ur nose ah" then i was like duh! which idiot extend his hand so long and make me gotta bend to walk.. then i saw.... BEN! haha.. then me n jean tok tok tok on e cab.. hmm.. =] ^_^

gonna finish these modules in another 3 weeks or so.. i'm gonna miss these people.. *sobz* they r so fun.. i made a lot of frens through these IS modules.. jess, u're gonna have fun in NP i assure you! k lah k lah, think i'm gonna research on my project and then do abit of probability which is damn stupid.. *yucks* but i have to do it, if not i'm gonna fail the test for sure.. *have to stay motivated* ho ho ho! cheers my friends! muacks!

i'm feeling such an ass right now.. been in low spirits since jus now.. why? maybe becos of the projs.. cip proj due on mon, and we haven even start doing.. great, marvellous..wonderful..

but after reading what jessie tagged at the tag board, at least i FELT better abit. thanks jess for makin my day! haha! i'm an angel..!

i miss him a lot.. think sunday evening then cn meet him, i hate this. becos of projs.. again.. i'm worried bt all those upcoming tests.. it's gonna b hell again.. i mus do well.. micro teacher ask me buck up liao.. teacher, i studied but did not do well ok.. happy.. it's all ur fault.. u go and die beetter..

sorry.. i'm mumbling crap..

ho ho. now at atrium slacking. heng i clever, took the time to finish up my lms. gonna submit final report tml. today's ocom presentation went quite smoothly. but i kept laughing while i press the slides. haha. also dont know why.

now still wearing the formal wear. i'm abit sticky liao. yest went ben's hse and had maggie mee there. ho ho ho. played a game called crimson room there. quite nice. actually is mus find all the clues n stuff one, but then he gave me quite alot of clues.. but still quite fun..

lao tian ye ah, pls dun rain now.. going ben's hse lata.. wahahaha.. anyway when ur wanna watch jian gui..! someone pls organize neh.. but i dun tink i will b free.. quite busy nowadays.. got this cip project due this monday.. and we haven even started.. cos we dunnoe how to do.. damn the fooking teacher lor..! grr...!!!

also sorry ah, 4 days nv update le..! hahaha! ur also v slow in updating lehz.. these few days keep sleeping late and keep doing projs.. hope will get some decent rest tonight.. cheers people..! cya..!

fell sick again. got a slight fever this noon. finished all the medicine doc gave me and yet still got slight sore throat. gosh.

projects realli is alot. keep meeting up for projects nowadays. gonna hand in final report for lms on fri and tml gotta stay back after class for ocom project. wearing my formal wear this thurs for ocom presentation. actually abit excited cos wearing heels and formal wear to sch for the 1st time. fresh feeling. hehe.

ben told me may gotta go with him for a dinner. actually v excited. but mus wear gown. so i guess i will b wearing those tube gown. think it's gonna cost a bomb. its not the dinner i am excited about but its that i'm going with him. he says he will b wearing some white uniform. gee. thats gonna be cool. =]

after thinking bt the dinner thing, woohoo, so excited..! bie shuo le.. the more i say the more excited i am...! ho ho ho! k lah just finished my micro tutorial assignment, gonna work on my powerpoint now.. and also copy my speech onto those small cards for easy reference when presenting. wondering if i should bring camera tt day. take pics. ho ho ho. i know lah. i abit siao. ho ho ho. whatever. i go eat dinner le.

later got ghost shows.. "incredible tales"!! happy happy!!

one has to stay happy no matter what the stituation is, then only will things be able to work out..

Aloha! Bought my formal wear this morning from causeway pt.. Still not bad lah.. But then got 1 Metro salesgurl asked for my number.. Then I doesnt know how to use her hp, so passed it to Grace ask her type my hp numb for me.. I was like.. Duh? Is she lesbian or what? She just nw msg me ask me where am I? But didnt reply.. Bleah.. But she got bf sia.. Cos she told Grace mah while i was tryin on my pants..

Grr.. Stomach cramp now.. Feel like cutting out my stomach and pull all my intestines out.. Disgusting right? Keke.. Just ate my cramp medicine.. Forgot to bring my sore throat all those medi to ben's hse.. so "happy" lo.. No need to eat medicine today liaoz.. *slap myself*

Feel like shitting now.. Grr... Guys, thanks for all ya concern.. My eyes is alright now... That time went to sch, everyone asked me whats wrong with my eyes, they tot i drank too much water then become bloated or what... Thanks lor.. Also mus thanks my frens who kept offering to help me buy lunch when i was lying my head on the table, sick...! So touched..! K lah.. Ur take care huh... Update again.. Cheers..!

shiet, i got 51.5/100 for micro, what kinda marks is these..? but i realli dun like micro i like macro better.. how how? i dunwan to repeat this module..! my stats got 60%.. also quite low.. wendy got 89.5 for micro, highest in the whole lecture grp.. clever right? i feel i so stupid.. study le but also get this kinda grades back.. think must be i always nc do tutorials.. very disappointed..

today nv go sch.. had fever and sore throat in e morning.. then my mum made me eat the fever medicines i got when i went to c doc the last time. then was watching "the haunted mansion" dvd.. is my bro friend one.. not so nice leh.. quite sianz.. ho ho ho.. heng i nv watch e movie.. and then my eyes auto swell up, like bitten by many mosquitos like tt.. same case when i was in sec 3.. i am allergic to some kind of fever medicines.. eat le eyes will become damn swollen..

i c myself in e mirror i also sianz.. is tt a human or a ghost? got to rush my lms proj out.. ur guys pray for my eyes.. must make it to sch tml cos tml stats lecture impt.. cnt miss.. argh.. why r all these happening to me?

I think i'm gonna fall sick soon.. having a quite bad sore throat now.. Grr.. Come so suddenly..! Just nw went to watch ben bowl at his competition.. Alot of bookies.. Kinda gambling like tt.. woo hoo! no gd no gd.. heng my ah ben gd.. nv smoke n gamble.. hope these people dun influence him.. Think he wont b so easily influenced.. Think after i ate tt chicken baked rice at east coast, then my throat suddenly turn for the worse.. Hmm.. What poison in there sia? *wonders*

Taking a breather from my economics tutorial.. Grr.. i came back at ard 11 and bathe and started doing it.. have to.. ahbo i scared the teacher pick on me and ask.. I realli feel like giving him a nice kick on his stomach and sent his ass flyin.. Oops! Heh heh..

I got alot da projs.. really is alot.. thurs going with grace they all to buy our formal wear shirts n pants.. then fri gonna submit my LMS draft report, then after tt gotta research and rehearse for my ocom presentation nx week.. and then also prepare for LMS final report submission... And then i also mus remb to print my MIC report out.. And I also must buy an organiser from popular.. And i going johor with mun yee grace they all to johor to buy our heels for presentation.. Sale mah...

I have never felt this stressed before.. Not last semester.. I hope this semester faster pass.. Its been hell for me..

Got back my CIP test. Well, got 61/100, not v satisfied. But at least i PASSED. *shrugs* have been on my stats tutorial assignments for ard 4hrs? very diao right.. so diff.. I took such a long time to finally get it done.. But i missed the last 3 qns.. Lol.. Kinda stuck on it..

Ok, today's been a heavy rain.. Gosh, Ben fainted this mornin in camp.. He got 2days MC.. Think he maybe too tired.. Lets hope he'll b alright soon.. hey guess what? I was in the mid of eating my dinner jus nw, halfway thrg, felt naseous so went to toilet to vomit.. think probably b4 ate a piece of cake, so kinda bloated. Grr.. Why am i always vomitting?

Just finish chatting w ben.. He went back slp again.. Think gonna get him some vitamin C to help build up his immunity system and some other stuffs.. still thinking what.. Goin back to hack on my stats tutorial now.. Grr.. Dont feel like going to sch tml cos it's such a raiiny weather, most suitable for sleeping..! Why dun this weather come when I'm holidaying.. Grr.. Not fair!

Tml gotta meet LMS proj grp for discussion at 5 at the atrium tml. Grr.. Can u believe it? My fren only got 8 scenes for her role play and what the hack, my grp got 27 scenes. What the hack what the hack! Stupid idiot tutor! Think we pro is it.. Minimum is 30 scene... Grrr...!!!!!

*felt like a dog in this blog.. always grrr-ing*

Raining heavily.

Miss him.

Projects cramming up my head.

Gonna get test paper later. Wondering how i fare. Stressed.

Argh.

woohoo! managed to get my LMS props list done. was pratically forcing myself to do. now at ben's hse. contact lenses drop out. "goodie goodie" mayb that's a sign to ask me to buy new lenses. feel everything is so blurry now. expiry date is long over.

Saturday passes so fast. it's gonna be sunday tml. feels so long like nv go sch le but haf to start sch on mon. i envy those who arent studying. anywork, working is pretty much of a hell too.

hm hm. i miss beauty so much. dear took me to farmart in e morn, as a surprise. cos he knows i wan c dogs! the dogs there r cutie cute! but.. pretty smelly too. cos they shit all tt. thinking bt it, i feel a pet shop is where i belong, the place i will b happy. i hve alreadi kind of tot it thrg. I will work fer a few yrs & save money & then i will open a pet shop with a partner. hopefully. read a newspaper cutting. the owner of paws n furs is a young lady who gave up her job to open this shop. also published for those who r interested in opening a pet shop in future. v interesting. =]

i realli wan to do something i love in my life. u live the way u want it. no one should control it except u. dun waste ur life doing something u dun like. u will live to regret for sure. =]

exhausted. jus came back from k box. went with cheryl for kbox lunch. 2 persons $16 nia. cheap hor? got lunch somemore. ate a yaki-tori set. although not nice but better than nth. i sang till i wanna slp.

still gotta do proj powerpoint. i very tired tired. *pulls all my hair out* yest went puppy patrol at bt timah there with ben. think hang there fer ard 30-45mins ba. played with the dogs there. ben initally was tempted to buy jack russell but the gurl said its hyper active n will keep biting e wood, although fur short, drops much more than long fur one. then i asked bt the price of golden retriever. it's $1250 n above. but guess it's jus enthu for 3mins nia him.

keep sneezing in the car after tt cos the shop many furs. used tissue n wipe n wipe until my nose stud gone. rushed to lot1 to buy nose stud. bought one for 90c at aries. then poked it in on e spot. heng i nv cry. so pain. cos the hole almost close. ahh. waiting for grace to come online so cn do powerpoint together. hope his checkup went well. felt so sorry for pekhar's friend, fidzo. such a fine young lady left jus like tt. the stupid driver ought to die after hitting her n run. hope its not anyone i know of. duh. god bless everyone. =]


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funny.. went bt panjang with jessie & pekhar.. Passed by the bowling, went in and saw alice lok, we sat there for a long time, toking.. wow, she says she's not going to be a teacher next yr cos she wanna be gd mum n housewife.. but she maybe gonna study diploma of early childhood then go b kinergarten teacher.. cos on one side, less stressful, working hours r short then cn go home pei her kids more, then lastly it's her interest.. kinda pei fu her, still got learning spirit at this age, not saying she's old or what, but if i were her age, i will b quite sianz w life i guess..

now, let's tok bt today's test.. damn diff, dont know how to do.. actually was alright, but still i dont know how to do.. typical me.. whatever.. dunwan tok bt test le, spoil my mood.. after test, went to do project, actually not doing project, also dunnoe go there fer what, slacking there.. =[ ---opportunity cost of doing projects -->> sleep, watch tv etc...---- =[

hoo hoo! wondering if i am going to meet ben tonight, he's been kind of busy this week. actually doesnt miss him alot like i used to when i was practically sitting at hm n doing nth, cos these few days have test, so i was busy studyin.. actually felt ok about it, cos at least didnt felt lik i was going to die any moment if i din c him.. still miss him though..

okie, now what i am sian about is tml gotta do proj again.. is for lms one.. the one which role play thingy.. i hate tt proj.. meeting at bugis mac at 12pm with em somemore.. really dun feel like going, but...... for the same of proj....... i'll just have to bear with it no matter how millions "i dunwan" come up... *shrugs*



Yeah! The test was alright for me. But halfway through, people who had already finish were leaving, makes me so damn distracted. Then I was like, write a few words then look up to c who had left, then write a few words then look up again. Then 3/4 of the some 200 people left liao.

Then I also kana stressed by them. Keep doing faster and faster, handwriting became uglier & uglier, then finally raise my hand and left. So cool uh? Finally, *phew* 1 test *banGG!*, left micro economics nia.. Hopefully I can get tt one right..

Oh ya, u all ah.. Pls update ur blog.. I feel I the guai-est.. Keep updating every min & sec lo.. *winks* Tml stay at home & study, later do research for my projsssss.... *faints*

This song makes me feel at ease. =)

All I know is that I'm missing you.

I just got back from ben's place. Did nothing much today except keep holding up my notes and tried very hard to look at it but in the end, my eyes keep staring at something else instead, the great invention of today -the tv-
Felt so irritated. So difficult to concentrate.

Tmr's test from 4-6. Hope it will b an ok one. If not.. I'm gonna curse my tutor until she die. Dun think I'll b meeting ben much this week. Think he quite busy this week. So sad. Gonna read up for i guess, quite a while before I get to sleep. Hope I finish asap. Guess quite irritated with the damn module & the whole book. I will b bonked out if i read the whole book. Read the summary ba. *pulls all my hairs out*

One thing to be happy about is, one test banged down. Left 1 more.

This song reminds me of him. Memories.......

hey guys.. i'm in the np library now.. with yvonne sitting at the table next to me.. she's reading a book! act classic! haha.. no la.. jk! i kept yawning today.. wondering if it's in me.. yawning practically every moment of my life.. i'm waiting for my other lms grp people to come here then we rehearse for the whole [awww] thing.. staying back when i actually could be home.. life is jus marvellous... wondering... perfect... lovely...!

had my excel test jus now.. woohoo! preparing to flunk the paper.. it's very difficult.. asking u to calculate operating income, do a one data variable chart and do a break even analysis? duh? the sample paper is not even tt hard.. hey ms faizah.. u cn jus go n die... if u ever see this, wonderful.. kick me out of the sch.. paisay.. too ji dong! haha! crap sia me!

ben's goin brunei this fri.. and i'm trying hard not to think bt it.. but basically there's no need to feel sad or whatsoever.. just for 3 weeks.. i'll just devote my time to my books... and lecture notes... :( *headache when i think bt notes n books*

i'm purely allergic to words, mainly alphabets..

one last thing, hon, i miss you.. if u ever should see this.. alot.. man..

was eating my mee which my parents bought from jurong.. and there there, almost ate finish.. then i saw a black black thing.. so i turned it and see what the hell it was.. end up a cockroach.. then i went to the toilet to vomit all i had ate.. amazing.. the pressure on my head was so great and for a moment, i thought my blood was all gonna burst out..

but! anyway.. damn the stall... i'm never ever gonna eat from there.. i'm gonna check my food thoroughly before i touched it in future.. bad luck..

darn, gonna study excel the whole day.. grr.. what a sunday..

it's 8am now and what am i doing here? haha.. these few days very very very very tired, i also dunnoe why.. so i kept on slping early.. yest slpt at 7pm until now.. amazing huh? later going sch then mr pon gonna revise us for our test.. kind of voluntary.. i guai huh? then after tt meet ms mao at ngee ann library study.. =]

cannot slack! this mon excel test, carries alot of percentage I THINK! shack!

ben going brunei this coming saturday.. for 3weeks.. actually gd timing also.. since i can use the time to study.. but i will b missing him so much.. and manping, that time u ask me eat roti prata is with celine they all right? i dunnoe her very well mah.. so i shy mah... dun dare to go.. i SHY ok.. lolx..! but then e prata also not nice one..

Anyway, i heard Jian Gui 2 the piao fang not bad leh... almost bai wan liaoz..! all becos of me lah...! did ur see act in e show? for ur info hor.. i am not the GHOSTS lor.. I am shuqi de........................ KA MO!! did ur c me? although not visible but i cn c ur looking at me thrg the screen...!!

yest went east coast with my honey. he slept on my thighs for ard 1 hr plus while i was looking at the planes passing by and the ships on the sea. wondering where the hell did those planes appear from and where did they come from? the 1st country that came to mind was vancouver. and i have no idea why. next i stared at the ships passing by. admiring the beautiful lights.

then saw 1 cockroach pulled my darling up by force. then i saw a rat! then pulled him up again! cos it was crawling damn fast towards us..! then nvm it ran away, then i slowly began to doze off... then i saw a CAT! kana we on very close terms with it like tt.. came to ben's feet there and slept beside his legs.. i was like, " wo gen ni hen shou meh?" act only sia..! then ok lor.. it went away after a while.. but was v funny and romantic though..! *wink wink*

today went to bt timah eat roti prata with my class people during break.. then cnt finish the prata, heng grace helped me eat a little.. shared "milo dinosaur" with cheryl.. alot of milo powder on the top one.. damn farni.. 1st time drinking.. but quite heaty.. then WALKED back to NP for micro tutorial.. ho ho ho.. so damn sweaty and hot by the time we reached class.. all our faces damn red.. so farni..

ok.. i realized my tests are getting nearer.. next week starting.. and what the hell? i haven even touch it yet... haiz.. i din know biz course so diff.. if not... i will not even choose this coz.. i will jus go to nursing instead.. nvm nvm.. since i'm already here, might as well... gen ta PIN LE!!!!! ur also jia you ar.. got time we go out study together lah? on anot? we go lib or what lo..

gee, i'm so tired. my jaws r aching and i feel like vomitting. right when i was listening to 98.7 while doing stats tutorial. i dunnoe if it's the stats hmwrk or the radio which made me feel naseous. my whole mind stopped functioning. mainly because this few days have been busy w project, but PHEW! presentation has finished!

Will b busy with the revision of my upcomin tests these few days.. I hate stats.. Gee.. But i've no choice, gotta buck up.. I think i'll head over to the study room or library during my free time to study. a quiet enviroment without any TVs and laptops is what i need.

yes, i've gotta buck up. I miss my darlin alot. he didnt sms me the whole day, which is understadable since he's busy. kept taking out e neoprints we took and kept staring at it. felt real happy when i hold it in my hands. lovey dopey. *thinking of him* oops!

yes, motivation pls stay, dun leave meeee......! ho ho ho..... =]

sorry guys to make all of you worry.. i'm alright now.. going to sch soon for lecture.. update later ok?

ur take care also... love all of ya..! =]

i've got gastric pain the whole day. i'm so tired. i'm so damn fucked up with life. i really find tt life is ugly.

and now there's some damn conflict btw my grp & the other grp. i'm jus so stressed up. i wonder whats the purpose of my existence sometimes. i just wish i can jus disappear from the face of earth.

is this the true human nature?

look guys, i just bathe and relaxing right now, not really relaxing.. thinking bt my projs.. i'm feeling better right now.. it's been such a long yet short day.. i felt better cos i got lotsa frens by my side and toking to em makes me feel good..

firstly, went to sch at ard 12 to meet "ms xiang" - yvoone.. and jasmi and pavitra and wen qi to print out our final report.. then we suddenly tot of a creative idea.. in e end we bought a hard case file and then put our report inside then we wrapped the thing up with a nice seashell pics wrapper and then we tied a balloon to it, on it written "to ms susan" which is our lms tutor's name.. everything was fun fun fun! i enjoyed myself through this process alot. i'm gonna miss this grp alot..

then went for s&w, instructor kept getting us to participate in the game cos we were like standing at the side and pratically yawning.. fun game.. gotta use 2 planks and then think of ways to get across blocks of round shape logs and then finally to a small square shape platform.. the whole lot of us(20+ people) must get onto the small platform.. b4 that, have to use the rope and swing like a monkey to the platform.. fun but hit my feet against the log.. ho ho!

then after that, he dismissed us at ard 4.15 cos it was raining.. big drops.. then me n jean n wendy ran the fastest to our bags and chiong all the way to the shelter.. then jean ask me wanna take taxi home anot, we sharing cab so i ok lor.. then met benedict koh on e way to take taxi, he was with his frens, all damn hip one, then he suddenly extended his long hand out and say "wah u poke ur nose ah" then i was like duh! which idiot extend his hand so long and make me gotta bend to walk.. then i saw.... BEN! haha.. then me n jean tok tok tok on e cab.. hmm.. =] ^_^

gonna finish these modules in another 3 weeks or so.. i'm gonna miss these people.. *sobz* they r so fun.. i made a lot of frens through these IS modules.. jess, u're gonna have fun in NP i assure you! k lah k lah, think i'm gonna research on my project and then do abit of probability which is damn stupid.. *yucks* but i have to do it, if not i'm gonna fail the test for sure.. *have to stay motivated* ho ho ho! cheers my friends! muacks!

i'm feeling such an ass right now.. been in low spirits since jus now.. why? maybe becos of the projs.. cip proj due on mon, and we haven even start doing.. great, marvellous..wonderful..

but after reading what jessie tagged at the tag board, at least i FELT better abit. thanks jess for makin my day! haha! i'm an angel..!

i miss him a lot.. think sunday evening then cn meet him, i hate this. becos of projs.. again.. i'm worried bt all those upcoming tests.. it's gonna b hell again.. i mus do well.. micro teacher ask me buck up liao.. teacher, i studied but did not do well ok.. happy.. it's all ur fault.. u go and die beetter..

sorry.. i'm mumbling crap..

ho ho. now at atrium slacking. heng i clever, took the time to finish up my lms. gonna submit final report tml. today's ocom presentation went quite smoothly. but i kept laughing while i press the slides. haha. also dont know why.

now still wearing the formal wear. i'm abit sticky liao. yest went ben's hse and had maggie mee there. ho ho ho. played a game called crimson room there. quite nice. actually is mus find all the clues n stuff one, but then he gave me quite alot of clues.. but still quite fun..

lao tian ye ah, pls dun rain now.. going ben's hse lata.. wahahaha.. anyway when ur wanna watch jian gui..! someone pls organize neh.. but i dun tink i will b free.. quite busy nowadays.. got this cip project due this monday.. and we haven even started.. cos we dunnoe how to do.. damn the fooking teacher lor..! grr...!!!

also sorry ah, 4 days nv update le..! hahaha! ur also v slow in updating lehz.. these few days keep sleeping late and keep doing projs.. hope will get some decent rest tonight.. cheers people..! cya..!

fell sick again. got a slight fever this noon. finished all the medicine doc gave me and yet still got slight sore throat. gosh.

projects realli is alot. keep meeting up for projects nowadays. gonna hand in final report for lms on fri and tml gotta stay back after class for ocom project. wearing my formal wear this thurs for ocom presentation. actually abit excited cos wearing heels and formal wear to sch for the 1st time. fresh feeling. hehe.

ben told me may gotta go with him for a dinner. actually v excited. but mus wear gown. so i guess i will b wearing those tube gown. think it's gonna cost a bomb. its not the dinner i am excited about but its that i'm going with him. he says he will b wearing some white uniform. gee. thats gonna be cool. =]

after thinking bt the dinner thing, woohoo, so excited..! bie shuo le.. the more i say the more excited i am...! ho ho ho! k lah just finished my micro tutorial assignment, gonna work on my powerpoint now.. and also copy my speech onto those small cards for easy reference when presenting. wondering if i should bring camera tt day. take pics. ho ho ho. i know lah. i abit siao. ho ho ho. whatever. i go eat dinner le.

later got ghost shows.. "incredible tales"!! happy happy!!

one has to stay happy no matter what the stituation is, then only will things be able to work out..

Aloha! Bought my formal wear this morning from causeway pt.. Still not bad lah.. But then got 1 Metro salesgurl asked for my number.. Then I doesnt know how to use her hp, so passed it to Grace ask her type my hp numb for me.. I was like.. Duh? Is she lesbian or what? She just nw msg me ask me where am I? But didnt reply.. Bleah.. But she got bf sia.. Cos she told Grace mah while i was tryin on my pants..

Grr.. Stomach cramp now.. Feel like cutting out my stomach and pull all my intestines out.. Disgusting right? Keke.. Just ate my cramp medicine.. Forgot to bring my sore throat all those medi to ben's hse.. so "happy" lo.. No need to eat medicine today liaoz.. *slap myself*

Feel like shitting now.. Grr... Guys, thanks for all ya concern.. My eyes is alright now... That time went to sch, everyone asked me whats wrong with my eyes, they tot i drank too much water then become bloated or what... Thanks lor.. Also mus thanks my frens who kept offering to help me buy lunch when i was lying my head on the table, sick...! So touched..! K lah.. Ur take care huh... Update again.. Cheers..!

shiet, i got 51.5/100 for micro, what kinda marks is these..? but i realli dun like micro i like macro better.. how how? i dunwan to repeat this module..! my stats got 60%.. also quite low.. wendy got 89.5 for micro, highest in the whole lecture grp.. clever right? i feel i so stupid.. study le but also get this kinda grades back.. think must be i always nc do tutorials.. very disappointed..

today nv go sch.. had fever and sore throat in e morning.. then my mum made me eat the fever medicines i got when i went to c doc the last time. then was watching "the haunted mansion" dvd.. is my bro friend one.. not so nice leh.. quite sianz.. ho ho ho.. heng i nv watch e movie.. and then my eyes auto swell up, like bitten by many mosquitos like tt.. same case when i was in sec 3.. i am allergic to some kind of fever medicines.. eat le eyes will become damn swollen..

i c myself in e mirror i also sianz.. is tt a human or a ghost? got to rush my lms proj out.. ur guys pray for my eyes.. must make it to sch tml cos tml stats lecture impt.. cnt miss.. argh.. why r all these happening to me?

I think i'm gonna fall sick soon.. having a quite bad sore throat now.. Grr.. Come so suddenly..! Just nw went to watch ben bowl at his competition.. Alot of bookies.. Kinda gambling like tt.. woo hoo! no gd no gd.. heng my ah ben gd.. nv smoke n gamble.. hope these people dun influence him.. Think he wont b so easily influenced.. Think after i ate tt chicken baked rice at east coast, then my throat suddenly turn for the worse.. Hmm.. What poison in there sia? *wonders*

Taking a breather from my economics tutorial.. Grr.. i came back at ard 11 and bathe and started doing it.. have to.. ahbo i scared the teacher pick on me and ask.. I realli feel like giving him a nice kick on his stomach and sent his ass flyin.. Oops! Heh heh..

I got alot da projs.. really is alot.. thurs going with grace they all to buy our formal wear shirts n pants.. then fri gonna submit my LMS draft report, then after tt gotta research and rehearse for my ocom presentation nx week.. and then also prepare for LMS final report submission... And then i also mus remb to print my MIC report out.. And I also must buy an organiser from popular.. And i going johor with mun yee grace they all to johor to buy our heels for presentation.. Sale mah...

I have never felt this stressed before.. Not last semester.. I hope this semester faster pass.. Its been hell for me..

Got back my CIP test. Well, got 61/100, not v satisfied. But at least i PASSED. *shrugs* have been on my stats tutorial assignments for ard 4hrs? very diao right.. so diff.. I took such a long time to finally get it done.. But i missed the last 3 qns.. Lol.. Kinda stuck on it..

Ok, today's been a heavy rain.. Gosh, Ben fainted this mornin in camp.. He got 2days MC.. Think he maybe too tired.. Lets hope he'll b alright soon.. hey guess what? I was in the mid of eating my dinner jus nw, halfway thrg, felt naseous so went to toilet to vomit.. think probably b4 ate a piece of cake, so kinda bloated. Grr.. Why am i always vomitting?

Just finish chatting w ben.. He went back slp again.. Think gonna get him some vitamin C to help build up his immunity system and some other stuffs.. still thinking what.. Goin back to hack on my stats tutorial now.. Grr.. Dont feel like going to sch tml cos it's such a raiiny weather, most suitable for sleeping..! Why dun this weather come when I'm holidaying.. Grr.. Not fair!

Tml gotta meet LMS proj grp for discussion at 5 at the atrium tml. Grr.. Can u believe it? My fren only got 8 scenes for her role play and what the hack, my grp got 27 scenes. What the hack what the hack! Stupid idiot tutor! Think we pro is it.. Minimum is 30 scene... Grrr...!!!!!

*felt like a dog in this blog.. always grrr-ing*

Raining heavily.

Miss him.

Projects cramming up my head.

Gonna get test paper later. Wondering how i fare. Stressed.

Argh.

woohoo! managed to get my LMS props list done. was pratically forcing myself to do. now at ben's hse. contact lenses drop out. "goodie goodie" mayb that's a sign to ask me to buy new lenses. feel everything is so blurry now. expiry date is long over.

Saturday passes so fast. it's gonna be sunday tml. feels so long like nv go sch le but haf to start sch on mon. i envy those who arent studying. anywork, working is pretty much of a hell too.

hm hm. i miss beauty so much. dear took me to farmart in e morn, as a surprise. cos he knows i wan c dogs! the dogs there r cutie cute! but.. pretty smelly too. cos they shit all tt. thinking bt it, i feel a pet shop is where i belong, the place i will b happy. i hve alreadi kind of tot it thrg. I will work fer a few yrs & save money & then i will open a pet shop with a partner. hopefully. read a newspaper cutting. the owner of paws n furs is a young lady who gave up her job to open this shop. also published for those who r interested in opening a pet shop in future. v interesting. =]

i realli wan to do something i love in my life. u live the way u want it. no one should control it except u. dun waste ur life doing something u dun like. u will live to regret for sure. =]

exhausted. jus came back from k box. went with cheryl for kbox lunch. 2 persons $16 nia. cheap hor? got lunch somemore. ate a yaki-tori set. although not nice but better than nth. i sang till i wanna slp.

still gotta do proj powerpoint. i very tired tired. *pulls all my hair out* yest went puppy patrol at bt timah there with ben. think hang there fer ard 30-45mins ba. played with the dogs there. ben initally was tempted to buy jack russell but the gurl said its hyper active n will keep biting e wood, although fur short, drops much more than long fur one. then i asked bt the price of golden retriever. it's $1250 n above. but guess it's jus enthu for 3mins nia him.

keep sneezing in the car after tt cos the shop many furs. used tissue n wipe n wipe until my nose stud gone. rushed to lot1 to buy nose stud. bought one for 90c at aries. then poked it in on e spot. heng i nv cry. so pain. cos the hole almost close. ahh. waiting for grace to come online so cn do powerpoint together. hope his checkup went well. felt so sorry for pekhar's friend, fidzo. such a fine young lady left jus like tt. the stupid driver ought to die after hitting her n run. hope its not anyone i know of. duh. god bless everyone. =]


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funny.. went bt panjang with jessie & pekhar.. Passed by the bowling, went in and saw alice lok, we sat there for a long time, toking.. wow, she says she's not going to be a teacher next yr cos she wanna be gd mum n housewife.. but she maybe gonna study diploma of early childhood then go b kinergarten teacher.. cos on one side, less stressful, working hours r short then cn go home pei her kids more, then lastly it's her interest.. kinda pei fu her, still got learning spirit at this age, not saying she's old or what, but if i were her age, i will b quite sianz w life i guess..

now, let's tok bt today's test.. damn diff, dont know how to do.. actually was alright, but still i dont know how to do.. typical me.. whatever.. dunwan tok bt test le, spoil my mood.. after test, went to do project, actually not doing project, also dunnoe go there fer what, slacking there.. =[ ---opportunity cost of doing projects -->> sleep, watch tv etc...---- =[

hoo hoo! wondering if i am going to meet ben tonight, he's been kind of busy this week. actually doesnt miss him alot like i used to when i was practically sitting at hm n doing nth, cos these few days have test, so i was busy studyin.. actually felt ok about it, cos at least didnt felt lik i was going to die any moment if i din c him.. still miss him though..

okie, now what i am sian about is tml gotta do proj again.. is for lms one.. the one which role play thingy.. i hate tt proj.. meeting at bugis mac at 12pm with em somemore.. really dun feel like going, but...... for the same of proj....... i'll just have to bear with it no matter how millions "i dunwan" come up... *shrugs*



Yeah! The test was alright for me. But halfway through, people who had already finish were leaving, makes me so damn distracted. Then I was like, write a few words then look up to c who had left, then write a few words then look up again. Then 3/4 of the some 200 people left liao.

Then I also kana stressed by them. Keep doing faster and faster, handwriting became uglier & uglier, then finally raise my hand and left. So cool uh? Finally, *phew* 1 test *banGG!*, left micro economics nia.. Hopefully I can get tt one right..

Oh ya, u all ah.. Pls update ur blog.. I feel I the guai-est.. Keep updating every min & sec lo.. *winks* Tml stay at home & study, later do research for my projsssss.... *faints*

This song makes me feel at ease. =)

All I know is that I'm missing you.

I just got back from ben's place. Did nothing much today except keep holding up my notes and tried very hard to look at it but in the end, my eyes keep staring at something else instead, the great invention of today -the tv-
Felt so irritated. So difficult to concentrate.

Tmr's test from 4-6. Hope it will b an ok one. If not.. I'm gonna curse my tutor until she die. Dun think I'll b meeting ben much this week. Think he quite busy this week. So sad. Gonna read up for i guess, quite a while before I get to sleep. Hope I finish asap. Guess quite irritated with the damn module & the whole book. I will b bonked out if i read the whole book. Read the summary ba. *pulls all my hairs out*

One thing to be happy about is, one test banged down. Left 1 more.

This song reminds me of him. Memories.......