yoz.. paper was er, quite killer... for me at least.. I shant tok bt it.. Nw i "qiu shen bai fou" also mus at least get 50 marks.. i dunwan to repeat this damn module! ah! kill me.. I cnt burn my notes yet.. ahh... *prays prays*

quite tired, just bathe.. went lot1 for lunch at the foodcourt with peixuan, pekhar, peifeng & ah man.. fun fun! Manping very the what lehz.. bully me.. :( Use her arm and put under my head and tow me.. I'm like kana kidnapped like tt lor.. Coz i gliding on e floor... *throw face* Si ah man! Poor ah man.. still gotta go to work after we go home..

Oh ya the thing i THINK is fixed at 8th may le.. We're MOST PROBABLY going to have a BBQ at kelong.. and MOST PROBABLY NOT going to stay overnight.. Hope we won't impose on peifeng's grandparents too much... Oops! Will definately clean up after we eat finish.. Dun worry! Got me around, sure spick and span! Oops!

Think gonna take out my micro-economics textbook and start on it.. It's on tuesday.. Monday will b having my Computer & Information Processing Exam.. Ahh! This semester is a killer semester.. KILL me someone..! Hugz peoplez.. Work hard for those RP and SP frenz! for RP people, just sit back and relax and wait for ur holiday to end & then we cn start suaning u when our holiday comes.. Woohoo! =P

starting to get cold feet for tml's exam.. wish e luck u guys.. it's from 9-11.. wake up early and burn joss sticks and pray for me..

butterflies are flying around in my stomach..

-gonex to study-

p/s: frens, let's just hang on.. 7th may is coming.. it better comes..


My messy desk..Just kana wracked by hurricane..


ArgH! Torture..!

Hi guys! Just returned from lot1, ate ljs with Ms mao.. Gee.. Now i'm back home going to start studying A.G.A.I.N!

Ms Mao asked whether you all 10th May ( Monday ) wanna go back to AES to visit the teachers anotz? She say go back see see b4 their exams? I'm anything one.. See ur lorz.. I wanna eat the canteen food.. That's my aim and take lotsa pics.. =] Jess, can make it anot? Those who can go/wanna go, pls tag in my tag board..

Gosh, I'm beginning to feel fat.. Must really do some exercise.. But run? Too lazy.. Swim? Scared become indian.. Workout at gym? Lazy.. Hmm, I guess I'm kind of contradicting myself.. Stupid ME! Haha..

Saw William Hung's CD - Inspiration- in the music store just now.. Err, Kinda gross.. But i admire his spirit lah.. I heard his one of his songs -I believe I can fly- over the perfect 10.. It was errr.. out of tune, gross and simply grossier.. Ur should maybe go and listen to it.. I kept getting goosebumps when I was listening to that.. Haha..

Btw, the kelong thing confirmed anot? Pei feng pei feng...!! *wink wink* How's it??
Gotta go study and then meet my hon for dinner tonight.. Yeah! Sweet sweet!



Save me from my misery!!

Yawnz, today's a lazy one.. Been studying the moment i woke up.. Didnt meet my honey today coz he's not feeling well so let him get enough rest at home.. Currently on track now.. Studied 4 chpts of stats, 1 chpt of OB, on 2nd chpt for micro and 3rd chpt for cip.. Grr.. So frustrated.. I hate studying.. On the other hand, who likes it anyway? But i just find it tormenting to study.. Ahh!

Yesterday went town shopping with honey, bought my tube dress from a shop called Shibuya at Far East.. I find it comfortable to wear in.. And yeah! 1 worries off my chest!

*Sigh* I guess I gotta go back to studying le.. This sucks.. I swear I will burn my notes when the exam're finished and I will just be laughing wildly with satisfaction as I watched the fire engulf my papers.. It will all disappear to ash.. And by that time, I'll invite all of ya to my house for a party to celebrate the death of my notes! Hooray!

I'm backkK! I'm tired, bloated from the pizzas and in a holiday mood. I'm gonna continue studying for my exams starting nexr thurs.. Went pizza hut with peixuan and gang, sinmin and surprisingly desmond to celeb peixuan's bday! She's 18! Lao le lao le..*shakes head* Haha..

Took the whole damn piece of cake and smashed peixuan on her face.. But didnt expect that she will return me the "favour".. She smashed me back.. My hair was smeared with cake and face kana also.. Makes me feel as if I'm gonna get pimples soon.. Peixuan xiao xin yi dian!

Anyway, hope to finish studying so that I can sleep earlier.. I really can't wait to hug my bed..

Lastly, Happy 18th birthday to Peixuan.. May u have a tao hua year ahead.. Woohoo! Hope Jiewei wun break my neck when he sees this.. Ooops..! *run to hide*


Peixuan & Pekhar in the LRT


Waiting for delicious PIzZas to be served!


bloated desmond with cake in mouth


Class gurls while waiting for our turn for neoprints.. *cheese*


Stacks of sushi plates after just 10mins into the buffet




what a nice morning....


Hi guys, just bathe and got back from make-up s&w.. Today's the last one.. When i was in the toilet changing to my PE attire, I saw... *drums roll* .... XINYI! Who will expect me to see her there! Such a coincidence! She's also in adventure rope! She's like blurrrr when she saw me, like cant recognise me.. Then after for like 10seconds, she started to "EHHH... HELLO!" The 1st thing she commented was, "wah, ur hair v ah lian lehz" then "wah,not pain ah? u pierce ur nose.."

She's in ECE ( Electronic Computer Engineering ).. She's still the same as b4.. Pretty pretty, sweet sweet.. But she keeps saying she's fat.. hahaaz.. Me more fatz ahz.. But anyway,went for the last makeup.. Then keep standing there in the sun waiting for my bloody turn to climb that thing.. Got tired of waiting, Mr Koh open another station.. Like many planks of wood up there in the form of a swing.. Then have to step on it and get over like 10over planks at a height of 2 floors..

I completed it! But the thing was soooo shaky.. Then the guy asked me shun bian pluck the leaves/branches that was blocking the way.. Then I ta ma de pluck lor.. Then i was laughing to myself.. Coz i'm like bangala plucking leaves.. Hahahaz.. But anyway, just wan to say I'm so so so HAPPY HAPPY EXCITED EXCITED!! tues is here tmlz.. Woohoo! *jumps ard*

Later going to heeren eat sakae sushi buffet with my class.. Book 2 tables.. hahaaz.. Fun fun! Borrowed v200 from my bro so i cn take pics.. Memories memories.. *smirk* So happening.. 1st time class outing after so looong... Tues tues tues tues tues faster faster faster faster come... *jump jump jump hop hop hop*



I think i'm crazy.. surfing the net on wedding sites?!? You must be thinking what a marriage psycho i am, dying to get married? But i accidentally stumbled upon some people's blogs and it was on their wedding.. So envious! When will it be my turn? I would just have to wait and see..

I also saw the ugliest wedding dress of the century, some purple gown with looks like bits of tissues stuck onto it.. then there's this peacock like feather stuck onto the bride's hair.. Is the bride getting married to a peacock monster or a human? Diaoz.. Ugliest i ever saw.. Yucks!

There's this couple who got married not long ago and the wife is pregnant i think for 1 mth plus le.. U know, I like to follow up on other people's blog even though i dunnoe them.. I have been like following on what this ang moh gurl wrote.. From i think, since she's dunnoe how many mths pregnant to now.. She has already given birth to a healthy baby boy 1 mth plus ago!

Not i pervert or what, but then it's always nice to know how the other people at the other side of the world is doing.. It's a nice feeling to read their blog and after a while, you feels as if you have already known them for a long time.. There's a certain trend about it, I am currently reading 3 other blogs aside from u gurls.. And all of them have kids.. Hahaz.. Makes me feel so much older when i read their blog.. oOps! Which explains my auntie behaviour huhz..! No lahz, jk! Bishz..!

Ok, I'm dying for him to come back.. Please please, let this saturday and sunday fly past.. Dun let them walk past.. Pls pls..

My goals :

- Obtain a degree in Business or Psychology if possible
- Start working to support family
- Get married? *blush*

I will add more if i think of it.. I just dont understand why more and more people are going to australia or some other parts of the world to study.. Many people from AES are either in australia or somewhere overseas studying.. This has become a trend.. I dont understand.. Is THERE really much better than HERE? I dont believe it.. I will obtain my degree in NUS or NTU.. At least I will try to..

I dont know, just felt crappy today.. blog alot.. I hope all of you bear with me..

Today, for my LMS class, we wrote a letter to Ms susan on the spot.. But we didnt know that we had to read it out.. It was so embarrassing.. A`letter on what we will b doing 5-6 yrs later.. I envison myself working as a human resource executive, married with a few kids.. and also mention on what LMS taught me.. Blah blah blah.. So embarrassing especially on the kids part.. Then Ms susan told me, " hope your children come after ur marriage " Then the class was laughing.. Hahaz.. *blush*

I dont know but i feel blogging on my blog isnt as private as it was supposed to be.. It's on the INTERNET! The whole damn world cn see what i'm writing.. And sometimes I just want to tok bt certain things which happened to me, but I can't.. I mean, you can't possibly blog your secrets right? Who would be stupid enough to do tt? So i was actually thinking of keeping a diary but... I'm lazy to write and also I have no such time.. Typing is much more efficient and faster.. I dont know, maybe I should consider another alternative.. It really is difficult to blog down your TRUE feelings.. There are far too much factors to be considered..

Haiz, read the news david beckham may have a possible affair with some malaysian born model.. Such a -censored- disgrace.. to his fans, to his wife, to his children, to his parents.. Because of guys like this, this is why some women refuse to have trust in guys.. And why some women's trust in guys are completely been inflated.. This is the reason.. Please do some -censored- reflection on yourself.. beckham..

The more i say, the more confused i am.. I dunnoe.. Look, my leg is giving me some *feng shi* problems.. too much aircon.. argh.. Its hurting the hell outta me.. Shit..

Bye guys, take care..


I miss my smoochie pie.. it's been such a long long time since i last saw him.. *sobz sobz*

today is real boring.. slept till 12plus and began thinking of him.. then started doing my stats tutorial.. then wanted to play the sims but stupid disc i think spoiled.. grr.. so so boring.. frens ard me is also complaning of boredness..

oh ya, i won 1 pair of tix for 50 first dates from 98.7fm for its preview on monday.. i think there's gonna b alot of stars at cathay cineleisure.. last time i went for the matrix preview, saw jean danker, yvoone lim, xu zheng rong.. blah blah.. but i dun think i'll b going, gif the tix to my bro n his fren.. coz i wanna watch movie with ben, we already say we wanna watch tt together when he's bk.. but still kinda troublesome hafta collect tix at cathay cineleisure on mon.. nvm, heng i will b at orchard ard tt time.. sushi sushi with my class! ho ho ho!

Just let me immerse in my studies.. i wan to study but yet i dun haf the mood.. what's this.. tml lms last lesson but yet still got to so ma fan bring food for the damn party.. i love to eat but lazy to bring.. hahaz.. anyway i'm so so so glad that tues is coming soon! hooray hooray! btw this sat SYF, who wanna go?

yest blackout and guess what i was doing? I was eating the whole tub of ice cream! why? coz i was too hot! no fan no aircon no nothing.. argh!
light my aroma therapy candles.. my mum and bro was like looking out the window at the completely dark streets.. no lights.. no whatsoever.. 1st time like this.. miracle.. interesting manz..!

gonna get down to serious biz soon.. start doing my stats tutorial.. i miss him so muchz.. 6 days morez..! yoo hoo! =]

today was a great one.. had pizzas and kfcs in one of my tutorials.. can't believe that it's actually the last tutorial.. Next week, I'll b having my study break and then exam-time.. Boring.. I enjoyed my time with my current class.. We will have lunch together every break.. Sit at a huge round table together and then eat.. Can't believe that only a yr left with em..

Actually, a yr in poly passes very fast.. 2 semester's time is fast.. You can't believe how fast it actually is.. I will definately miss em.. I wish i have a camera phone.. I'll b taking every moment of e moments spent w my class..

This coming monday will be going orchard to eat sakae sushi buffet with my class.. Woohoo! It'll be so fun..! I'm looking forward to it! MOst importantly, I'm looking forward to tuesday! Ben will b back on tt day's morning! Yeah! O lei o lei o lei o leI !!!! I want to wear cheerleader's uniform and bring pom pom go airpot welcome him! Haha! No lahz.. He'll confirm faint if he sees me like tt..

Anyway, what's damn up with the stupid zeocast thing.. it jus wouldnt load.. Stupid website of theirs also wouldnt load.. See how lahz.. If still dun load, I'll b deleting it from my post.. Grr.. Anyway announce 1 gd news, my stats got 69! teacher
+ 3 marks..! My excel test got 63.. :( Heng at least i passed everything.. =] cheers!

Daniel Yam's gown! I'm coming!

I just cant put my heart to study.. There's just too many external distractions and maybe internal distractions too.. External referring to the TV etc.. Internal referring to my short live attention span and other things which just kept swimming ard in my head.. Just get off me..

I just want to study.. for the test tmlz.. Someone stop all these throughts in my head now.. They're freaking irritating me and disturbing me.. *sigh*

I'm missing my darling so badly now.. He called me in the morning today to tell me he's leaving for the 3d 2 nites outfield already.. So sweet.. But i was still asleep so was abit blurry.. Yesterday we tok on the phone for mm.. ard 14mins.. 1min = $1.40.. I bet he will faint when the bill comes..

Anyway, hope my anti-gaga spell still works.. Mm.. Still 10days left.. He'll b coming back on 20th morning and I just realized that's our 2yrs 4 mths.. We're going to be 2 and a half yrs! I'm so happy we've made it through this far and I believe we will continue to do so for the future..

I'm so glad fate has let us met and I'm happy that I've got such a wonderful and sweet bf.. Thinking about those days.. From band days, to his BMT, to his OCS days, to his officer days... Time sure flies.. I still remember the 1st time when I meet him with peixuan pekhar peifeng, the 3 of them basically is "abandon" me.. I'm the only one who's talking to him, trying hard not to let him feel left out..

But! Hey! I want to thank all of ya for "abandoning" me.. I still remember "Harry Potter".. We were all sitting i think the 1st or 2nd row and our necks basically almost broke.. Had to look up so high in order to see the screen.. Thinking about it just makes me smile..

Sometimes I will occasionally thought of it when I'm in the train or the bus, and then I'll smile to myself or I will take out my hp and look through all the SMS's he sent me.. And I'll be smiling to myself and then for a moment, I will be looking around to see if anyone had caught me smiling.. People might think I am a crazy girl.. Wahaha, who cares anyway? I really miss him so much lehz.. Paisay horz, i know it's straining you guy's eyes but I really need to blog out the emotions and thoughts that's running through my mind right now.. =]




haiz, *shakes head*, my mum toking to my auntie on the phone..

my dad providing some cleaning services job.. then business is really poor lor.. then one main company he providing services for is going to move away soon, so it's like a major blow to my dad's biz.. may haf to shut down? so he ask my mum go out and work..

I hear liao i so sad.. I think i must find a job this holiday.. to help my family.. i hope i can graduate soon and work and then I'll be able to give money to my mum..



cried alot during "passion of the christ" but the ending was not satisfactory? but overall, it was a nice show.. mel gibson's movies are always nice..

downloading all my past yr exam papers right now.. tired.. eyes closing soon.. gotta get some serious studying tmlz.. anyway, was fun watching movie with celine peixuan pekhar they all.. Pekhar said I comment alot during e movie.. bt i will die if i dun tok.. hahaa.. nice show..

gotta continue what i'm doing in e 1st place.. update again.. nitey.. muacks..

I'm glad, I'm happy and I'm rejoicing!

I got 66 for my stats and 88.5 for my micro..! I certainly hope that I can pass all of my modules.. get over this damn thing quickly..

So excited! Gonna watch "passion of the christ" with peixuan they all.. Looking forward to it..

Just reached home and I'm starting to feel sleepy.. Gonna catch a few hrs of slp.. I miss him alot lehz.. Still got 12 days before he's coming back.. Wonder if my anti-gaga spell works? I hope so.. =]

Just now was crapping with Jean.. about China and Cambodia thingy.. She say she wanna adopt me this cambodian kid and then she was telling me she using robots to help her with farming in China now.. Hahahaz... Very farni ahz.. Come to think of it, miss her company alot..

sha la la la, everyone should be happy.. sha la la la...

tired.. *yawnz* just bathe.. went cause way with ah mao.. we joked alot.. haha, was fun.. oh ya, i wanted to tell u all hor, u know hor, we walk past the bridal shop mah, then we were admiring the nice photos, then there's this couple photo.. face to face.. then i was telling her, next time you and jiewei want take such photos, no need waste her go down there and let photographer take, just cut and paste zhen zi face can liaoz.. then she was like hitting me like siao.. hahaha.. bishz..

bought a pair of shoes from charles and keith.. hohoho! finally got new shoe le.. got to start studying for my ocom on fri.. yeah! this fri gd friday! o lei o lei o lei o lei! =]

went to try out those evening wear at METRO.. i know when i say METRO, ur confirm think " eek, so cheapskate ah?" but then dun xiao kan their evening wear lo.. quite nice.. i like one which is black in col and it's 89.90.. quite cheap.. But i was thinkin if i shld wear a gown ( not those pong pong one, is those tube gown ) or just the METRo evening wear dresses.. Hmmz, must ask ben what's the dress code..

Anyway, had a great time today.. time for a good slp later and a new day.. hopefully, I can at least damn it pass my fooking stats..

yeah! projs finish! hooray! *hugz*

thurs wanna go for movie? Gonna start working hard again for mon's oral communication test.. theory... nvm, i prefer that than stats.. grr.. gonna get back stats either tml or the day after.. *shakes head*

My exam starting at 29th and ending at 7th may.. yeah! looking forward to 7th may.. I confirm happy until siao..! ho ho ho! Proj went well today, one of my fren commented that the proj was good.. Was such a consolation! We involved everyone in yoga postures.. and we light candles and fragrance stress relief incense to lighten atmosphere.. Whole room was dark.. Then we collabrated with my class.. We make 1 extra slide at the end saying "happy birthday brian"! Then he was shocked..

Sang bday songs and ate cake.. Was fun...! =] cHeeRs... Btw, did jess disappear? Her blog is so not updated..! Jess update when u see this.. bishz..!

As i hear this song on my blog, I am thinking of ben right now.. ... I will be watching you from above.. Just think of me & I'll be there..

hello guys.. I'm at the atrium now.. Adding the final touch to my project.. Yest was stress stress stress.. I dont know if I will manage to pass the paper but i know i did my best.. Saw benedict koh b4 the paper and he wished me gd luck for failing the paper, what an ******! hahaha..! dun let me see him again ahbo..... *wu ying jiao....!!*

Hmm, yest ben call me and we had a really nice talk.. It uplifted my soul and I felt so so so damn happy.. Hehe! Yesterday was doing the powerpoint until the wee hours.. So quite tired now.. Beauty sleep on my bed i think, coz when I woke up in the morning, the 1st one I saw was her.. So cutie cutie..!

Oh ya, i wanted to tell ur bt my dog, that stupid rosy.. Ur know horz, I was sitting in the living room watching tv and studying at the same time mahx, then i was looking down onto my notes and then out of the corner of my eye, I saw rosy sitting and looking at me.. Then I was like " how come she today so guai? " Then I reached out, wanting to brush her hair then my hand knocked against a plastic container.. It was empty!

That was her drink bowl! Then she use her mouth and take it and let me see its empty, ask me refill drink for her.. Then my mum ask me go the kitchen there see got water on the floor anot, then indeed got lor.. Then my mum said rosy always pour away the last bit of the water coz her tongue cnt reach it anymore, so she pour away ask us refill new one up to the brim for her.. Clever dog... But how come she gong gong never come to me when I call her name? Idiotically adorable..

been studying and .... but it was on off on off type.. Still left 1 more chpt to go.. Looks like everyone is cursing my stats tutor, ans she gave was wrong and no one understood what she taught. Terrible. Suay got this biatch as our tutor. *shakes head*

I wonder if brunei is raining too.. Waiting for Ms Congeniality to show on TV! Such a farni show although I didnt manage to catch that movie. Saw the ad on the tv. When models say they hope for world peace, everyone rejoice. True enough, if you manage to keep a lookout on the answer those models gave, i bet 90% of them hoped for world peace. I wonder if it's true or just a routine answer. They know it best.

I miss going out with my friends, i miss sec sch life, I miss the past, I miss you, I miss I miss I miss..... I must treasure every moment I have now, cherish and make the best use out of everything, because I dunwan myself to regret when I look back in the future.. Hey, anyone want to go out on wed or thurs like tt? After my bstats test on Mon, I gotta rush for my project presentation on tues. And there there, I can finally say with a a smirk that almost everythin is done. Last proj is on tues. except 1 more test and 4 more exams.

Rejoice rejoice rejoice.. May the day of rejoice come.. Btw, you all havent reach 18 right? I wanna watch "passion of the christ"! My classmates whom are christians are all filling me in about it until I wanna watch also..! Hehe!

time out! taking a short break from my studying.. Been studying non stop.. I think I did quite alot of stats qns.. but some areas still not yet as familiar, but as long as I can pass, who cares? Still have 4 more chpts to go.. wish me luck u guys..

Ben's in brunei now, he called me just now.. yeah! but only for bt a min, coz quite expensive but that 1 min is enough to satisfy me.. Still have 16 days to go b4 he's back.. It's gonna be fast.. Yeah real fast.. No mosquitos shall bite him, no ants shall touch him! *puts a anti gaga spell on him* ok, it's done..!

ho ho ho! I go continue my study le.. Let's see if I can hang on till 5am.. That's my limit.. Hmm...

these few days have been a period of complete disaster. can't imagine I was studying whereever I go.. I have been thinking, I'm one who is slower in learning. Not sure if it's because my mum gave birth to me in her 30's, which was considered quite late. Cos my bro and I quite slow in grasping the whole content particularly in studies.

But I'm good in memorisin, can say so. I take a longer time to study than anyone else in my class. I think. I take a longer time to learn the whole idea about belaying and stuffs. But no matter what, I am willing to learn and I will not give up!

Going for LMS rehearsal soon. Ok gosh. I feel I'm one busy woman these days. My sats, sun, mon and tues are all packed. But with the right reasons. Not for shopping purposes or whatsoever. Tests tests test, exams exams exams, projects projects projects, these few words can practically describe the life of a polytechnic student. Jessie, hope you can appeal successfully to NP then we can "suffer" and "complain" together le. =]

yoz.. paper was er, quite killer... for me at least.. I shant tok bt it.. Nw i "qiu shen bai fou" also mus at least get 50 marks.. i dunwan to repeat this damn module! ah! kill me.. I cnt burn my notes yet.. ahh... *prays prays*

quite tired, just bathe.. went lot1 for lunch at the foodcourt with peixuan, pekhar, peifeng & ah man.. fun fun! Manping very the what lehz.. bully me.. :( Use her arm and put under my head and tow me.. I'm like kana kidnapped like tt lor.. Coz i gliding on e floor... *throw face* Si ah man! Poor ah man.. still gotta go to work after we go home..

Oh ya the thing i THINK is fixed at 8th may le.. We're MOST PROBABLY going to have a BBQ at kelong.. and MOST PROBABLY NOT going to stay overnight.. Hope we won't impose on peifeng's grandparents too much... Oops! Will definately clean up after we eat finish.. Dun worry! Got me around, sure spick and span! Oops!

Think gonna take out my micro-economics textbook and start on it.. It's on tuesday.. Monday will b having my Computer & Information Processing Exam.. Ahh! This semester is a killer semester.. KILL me someone..! Hugz peoplez.. Work hard for those RP and SP frenz! for RP people, just sit back and relax and wait for ur holiday to end & then we cn start suaning u when our holiday comes.. Woohoo! =P

starting to get cold feet for tml's exam.. wish e luck u guys.. it's from 9-11.. wake up early and burn joss sticks and pray for me..

butterflies are flying around in my stomach..

-gonex to study-

p/s: frens, let's just hang on.. 7th may is coming.. it better comes..


My messy desk..Just kana wracked by hurricane..


ArgH! Torture..!

Hi guys! Just returned from lot1, ate ljs with Ms mao.. Gee.. Now i'm back home going to start studying A.G.A.I.N!

Ms Mao asked whether you all 10th May ( Monday ) wanna go back to AES to visit the teachers anotz? She say go back see see b4 their exams? I'm anything one.. See ur lorz.. I wanna eat the canteen food.. That's my aim and take lotsa pics.. =] Jess, can make it anot? Those who can go/wanna go, pls tag in my tag board..

Gosh, I'm beginning to feel fat.. Must really do some exercise.. But run? Too lazy.. Swim? Scared become indian.. Workout at gym? Lazy.. Hmm, I guess I'm kind of contradicting myself.. Stupid ME! Haha..

Saw William Hung's CD - Inspiration- in the music store just now.. Err, Kinda gross.. But i admire his spirit lah.. I heard his one of his songs -I believe I can fly- over the perfect 10.. It was errr.. out of tune, gross and simply grossier.. Ur should maybe go and listen to it.. I kept getting goosebumps when I was listening to that.. Haha..

Btw, the kelong thing confirmed anot? Pei feng pei feng...!! *wink wink* How's it??
Gotta go study and then meet my hon for dinner tonight.. Yeah! Sweet sweet!



Save me from my misery!!

Yawnz, today's a lazy one.. Been studying the moment i woke up.. Didnt meet my honey today coz he's not feeling well so let him get enough rest at home.. Currently on track now.. Studied 4 chpts of stats, 1 chpt of OB, on 2nd chpt for micro and 3rd chpt for cip.. Grr.. So frustrated.. I hate studying.. On the other hand, who likes it anyway? But i just find it tormenting to study.. Ahh!

Yesterday went town shopping with honey, bought my tube dress from a shop called Shibuya at Far East.. I find it comfortable to wear in.. And yeah! 1 worries off my chest!

*Sigh* I guess I gotta go back to studying le.. This sucks.. I swear I will burn my notes when the exam're finished and I will just be laughing wildly with satisfaction as I watched the fire engulf my papers.. It will all disappear to ash.. And by that time, I'll invite all of ya to my house for a party to celebrate the death of my notes! Hooray!

I'm backkK! I'm tired, bloated from the pizzas and in a holiday mood. I'm gonna continue studying for my exams starting nexr thurs.. Went pizza hut with peixuan and gang, sinmin and surprisingly desmond to celeb peixuan's bday! She's 18! Lao le lao le..*shakes head* Haha..

Took the whole damn piece of cake and smashed peixuan on her face.. But didnt expect that she will return me the "favour".. She smashed me back.. My hair was smeared with cake and face kana also.. Makes me feel as if I'm gonna get pimples soon.. Peixuan xiao xin yi dian!

Anyway, hope to finish studying so that I can sleep earlier.. I really can't wait to hug my bed..

Lastly, Happy 18th birthday to Peixuan.. May u have a tao hua year ahead.. Woohoo! Hope Jiewei wun break my neck when he sees this.. Ooops..! *run to hide*


Peixuan & Pekhar in the LRT


Waiting for delicious PIzZas to be served!


bloated desmond with cake in mouth


Class gurls while waiting for our turn for neoprints.. *cheese*


Stacks of sushi plates after just 10mins into the buffet




what a nice morning....


Hi guys, just bathe and got back from make-up s&w.. Today's the last one.. When i was in the toilet changing to my PE attire, I saw... *drums roll* .... XINYI! Who will expect me to see her there! Such a coincidence! She's also in adventure rope! She's like blurrrr when she saw me, like cant recognise me.. Then after for like 10seconds, she started to "EHHH... HELLO!" The 1st thing she commented was, "wah, ur hair v ah lian lehz" then "wah,not pain ah? u pierce ur nose.."

She's in ECE ( Electronic Computer Engineering ).. She's still the same as b4.. Pretty pretty, sweet sweet.. But she keeps saying she's fat.. hahaaz.. Me more fatz ahz.. But anyway,went for the last makeup.. Then keep standing there in the sun waiting for my bloody turn to climb that thing.. Got tired of waiting, Mr Koh open another station.. Like many planks of wood up there in the form of a swing.. Then have to step on it and get over like 10over planks at a height of 2 floors..

I completed it! But the thing was soooo shaky.. Then the guy asked me shun bian pluck the leaves/branches that was blocking the way.. Then I ta ma de pluck lor.. Then i was laughing to myself.. Coz i'm like bangala plucking leaves.. Hahahaz.. But anyway, just wan to say I'm so so so HAPPY HAPPY EXCITED EXCITED!! tues is here tmlz.. Woohoo! *jumps ard*

Later going to heeren eat sakae sushi buffet with my class.. Book 2 tables.. hahaaz.. Fun fun! Borrowed v200 from my bro so i cn take pics.. Memories memories.. *smirk* So happening.. 1st time class outing after so looong... Tues tues tues tues tues faster faster faster faster come... *jump jump jump hop hop hop*



I think i'm crazy.. surfing the net on wedding sites?!? You must be thinking what a marriage psycho i am, dying to get married? But i accidentally stumbled upon some people's blogs and it was on their wedding.. So envious! When will it be my turn? I would just have to wait and see..

I also saw the ugliest wedding dress of the century, some purple gown with looks like bits of tissues stuck onto it.. then there's this peacock like feather stuck onto the bride's hair.. Is the bride getting married to a peacock monster or a human? Diaoz.. Ugliest i ever saw.. Yucks!

There's this couple who got married not long ago and the wife is pregnant i think for 1 mth plus le.. U know, I like to follow up on other people's blog even though i dunnoe them.. I have been like following on what this ang moh gurl wrote.. From i think, since she's dunnoe how many mths pregnant to now.. She has already given birth to a healthy baby boy 1 mth plus ago!

Not i pervert or what, but then it's always nice to know how the other people at the other side of the world is doing.. It's a nice feeling to read their blog and after a while, you feels as if you have already known them for a long time.. There's a certain trend about it, I am currently reading 3 other blogs aside from u gurls.. And all of them have kids.. Hahaz.. Makes me feel so much older when i read their blog.. oOps! Which explains my auntie behaviour huhz..! No lahz, jk! Bishz..!

Ok, I'm dying for him to come back.. Please please, let this saturday and sunday fly past.. Dun let them walk past.. Pls pls..

My goals :

- Obtain a degree in Business or Psychology if possible
- Start working to support family
- Get married? *blush*

I will add more if i think of it.. I just dont understand why more and more people are going to australia or some other parts of the world to study.. Many people from AES are either in australia or somewhere overseas studying.. This has become a trend.. I dont understand.. Is THERE really much better than HERE? I dont believe it.. I will obtain my degree in NUS or NTU.. At least I will try to..

I dont know, just felt crappy today.. blog alot.. I hope all of you bear with me..

Today, for my LMS class, we wrote a letter to Ms susan on the spot.. But we didnt know that we had to read it out.. It was so embarrassing.. A`letter on what we will b doing 5-6 yrs later.. I envison myself working as a human resource executive, married with a few kids.. and also mention on what LMS taught me.. Blah blah blah.. So embarrassing especially on the kids part.. Then Ms susan told me, " hope your children come after ur marriage " Then the class was laughing.. Hahaz.. *blush*

I dont know but i feel blogging on my blog isnt as private as it was supposed to be.. It's on the INTERNET! The whole damn world cn see what i'm writing.. And sometimes I just want to tok bt certain things which happened to me, but I can't.. I mean, you can't possibly blog your secrets right? Who would be stupid enough to do tt? So i was actually thinking of keeping a diary but... I'm lazy to write and also I have no such time.. Typing is much more efficient and faster.. I dont know, maybe I should consider another alternative.. It really is difficult to blog down your TRUE feelings.. There are far too much factors to be considered..

Haiz, read the news david beckham may have a possible affair with some malaysian born model.. Such a -censored- disgrace.. to his fans, to his wife, to his children, to his parents.. Because of guys like this, this is why some women refuse to have trust in guys.. And why some women's trust in guys are completely been inflated.. This is the reason.. Please do some -censored- reflection on yourself.. beckham..

The more i say, the more confused i am.. I dunnoe.. Look, my leg is giving me some *feng shi* problems.. too much aircon.. argh.. Its hurting the hell outta me.. Shit..

Bye guys, take care..


I miss my smoochie pie.. it's been such a long long time since i last saw him.. *sobz sobz*

today is real boring.. slept till 12plus and began thinking of him.. then started doing my stats tutorial.. then wanted to play the sims but stupid disc i think spoiled.. grr.. so so boring.. frens ard me is also complaning of boredness..

oh ya, i won 1 pair of tix for 50 first dates from 98.7fm for its preview on monday.. i think there's gonna b alot of stars at cathay cineleisure.. last time i went for the matrix preview, saw jean danker, yvoone lim, xu zheng rong.. blah blah.. but i dun think i'll b going, gif the tix to my bro n his fren.. coz i wanna watch movie with ben, we already say we wanna watch tt together when he's bk.. but still kinda troublesome hafta collect tix at cathay cineleisure on mon.. nvm, heng i will b at orchard ard tt time.. sushi sushi with my class! ho ho ho!

Just let me immerse in my studies.. i wan to study but yet i dun haf the mood.. what's this.. tml lms last lesson but yet still got to so ma fan bring food for the damn party.. i love to eat but lazy to bring.. hahaz.. anyway i'm so so so glad that tues is coming soon! hooray hooray! btw this sat SYF, who wanna go?

yest blackout and guess what i was doing? I was eating the whole tub of ice cream! why? coz i was too hot! no fan no aircon no nothing.. argh!
light my aroma therapy candles.. my mum and bro was like looking out the window at the completely dark streets.. no lights.. no whatsoever.. 1st time like this.. miracle.. interesting manz..!

gonna get down to serious biz soon.. start doing my stats tutorial.. i miss him so muchz.. 6 days morez..! yoo hoo! =]

today was a great one.. had pizzas and kfcs in one of my tutorials.. can't believe that it's actually the last tutorial.. Next week, I'll b having my study break and then exam-time.. Boring.. I enjoyed my time with my current class.. We will have lunch together every break.. Sit at a huge round table together and then eat.. Can't believe that only a yr left with em..

Actually, a yr in poly passes very fast.. 2 semester's time is fast.. You can't believe how fast it actually is.. I will definately miss em.. I wish i have a camera phone.. I'll b taking every moment of e moments spent w my class..

This coming monday will be going orchard to eat sakae sushi buffet with my class.. Woohoo! It'll be so fun..! I'm looking forward to it! MOst importantly, I'm looking forward to tuesday! Ben will b back on tt day's morning! Yeah! O lei o lei o lei o leI !!!! I want to wear cheerleader's uniform and bring pom pom go airpot welcome him! Haha! No lahz.. He'll confirm faint if he sees me like tt..

Anyway, what's damn up with the stupid zeocast thing.. it jus wouldnt load.. Stupid website of theirs also wouldnt load.. See how lahz.. If still dun load, I'll b deleting it from my post.. Grr.. Anyway announce 1 gd news, my stats got 69! teacher
+ 3 marks..! My excel test got 63.. :( Heng at least i passed everything.. =] cheers!

Daniel Yam's gown! I'm coming!

I just cant put my heart to study.. There's just too many external distractions and maybe internal distractions too.. External referring to the TV etc.. Internal referring to my short live attention span and other things which just kept swimming ard in my head.. Just get off me..

I just want to study.. for the test tmlz.. Someone stop all these throughts in my head now.. They're freaking irritating me and disturbing me.. *sigh*

I'm missing my darling so badly now.. He called me in the morning today to tell me he's leaving for the 3d 2 nites outfield already.. So sweet.. But i was still asleep so was abit blurry.. Yesterday we tok on the phone for mm.. ard 14mins.. 1min = $1.40.. I bet he will faint when the bill comes..

Anyway, hope my anti-gaga spell still works.. Mm.. Still 10days left.. He'll b coming back on 20th morning and I just realized that's our 2yrs 4 mths.. We're going to be 2 and a half yrs! I'm so happy we've made it through this far and I believe we will continue to do so for the future..

I'm so glad fate has let us met and I'm happy that I've got such a wonderful and sweet bf.. Thinking about those days.. From band days, to his BMT, to his OCS days, to his officer days... Time sure flies.. I still remember the 1st time when I meet him with peixuan pekhar peifeng, the 3 of them basically is "abandon" me.. I'm the only one who's talking to him, trying hard not to let him feel left out..

But! Hey! I want to thank all of ya for "abandoning" me.. I still remember "Harry Potter".. We were all sitting i think the 1st or 2nd row and our necks basically almost broke.. Had to look up so high in order to see the screen.. Thinking about it just makes me smile..

Sometimes I will occasionally thought of it when I'm in the train or the bus, and then I'll smile to myself or I will take out my hp and look through all the SMS's he sent me.. And I'll be smiling to myself and then for a moment, I will be looking around to see if anyone had caught me smiling.. People might think I am a crazy girl.. Wahaha, who cares anyway? I really miss him so much lehz.. Paisay horz, i know it's straining you guy's eyes but I really need to blog out the emotions and thoughts that's running through my mind right now.. =]




haiz, *shakes head*, my mum toking to my auntie on the phone..

my dad providing some cleaning services job.. then business is really poor lor.. then one main company he providing services for is going to move away soon, so it's like a major blow to my dad's biz.. may haf to shut down? so he ask my mum go out and work..

I hear liao i so sad.. I think i must find a job this holiday.. to help my family.. i hope i can graduate soon and work and then I'll be able to give money to my mum..



cried alot during "passion of the christ" but the ending was not satisfactory? but overall, it was a nice show.. mel gibson's movies are always nice..

downloading all my past yr exam papers right now.. tired.. eyes closing soon.. gotta get some serious studying tmlz.. anyway, was fun watching movie with celine peixuan pekhar they all.. Pekhar said I comment alot during e movie.. bt i will die if i dun tok.. hahaa.. nice show..

gotta continue what i'm doing in e 1st place.. update again.. nitey.. muacks..

I'm glad, I'm happy and I'm rejoicing!

I got 66 for my stats and 88.5 for my micro..! I certainly hope that I can pass all of my modules.. get over this damn thing quickly..

So excited! Gonna watch "passion of the christ" with peixuan they all.. Looking forward to it..

Just reached home and I'm starting to feel sleepy.. Gonna catch a few hrs of slp.. I miss him alot lehz.. Still got 12 days before he's coming back.. Wonder if my anti-gaga spell works? I hope so.. =]

Just now was crapping with Jean.. about China and Cambodia thingy.. She say she wanna adopt me this cambodian kid and then she was telling me she using robots to help her with farming in China now.. Hahahaz... Very farni ahz.. Come to think of it, miss her company alot..

sha la la la, everyone should be happy.. sha la la la...

tired.. *yawnz* just bathe.. went cause way with ah mao.. we joked alot.. haha, was fun.. oh ya, i wanted to tell u all hor, u know hor, we walk past the bridal shop mah, then we were admiring the nice photos, then there's this couple photo.. face to face.. then i was telling her, next time you and jiewei want take such photos, no need waste her go down there and let photographer take, just cut and paste zhen zi face can liaoz.. then she was like hitting me like siao.. hahaha.. bishz..

bought a pair of shoes from charles and keith.. hohoho! finally got new shoe le.. got to start studying for my ocom on fri.. yeah! this fri gd friday! o lei o lei o lei o lei! =]

went to try out those evening wear at METRO.. i know when i say METRO, ur confirm think " eek, so cheapskate ah?" but then dun xiao kan their evening wear lo.. quite nice.. i like one which is black in col and it's 89.90.. quite cheap.. But i was thinkin if i shld wear a gown ( not those pong pong one, is those tube gown ) or just the METRo evening wear dresses.. Hmmz, must ask ben what's the dress code..

Anyway, had a great time today.. time for a good slp later and a new day.. hopefully, I can at least damn it pass my fooking stats..

yeah! projs finish! hooray! *hugz*

thurs wanna go for movie? Gonna start working hard again for mon's oral communication test.. theory... nvm, i prefer that than stats.. grr.. gonna get back stats either tml or the day after.. *shakes head*

My exam starting at 29th and ending at 7th may.. yeah! looking forward to 7th may.. I confirm happy until siao..! ho ho ho! Proj went well today, one of my fren commented that the proj was good.. Was such a consolation! We involved everyone in yoga postures.. and we light candles and fragrance stress relief incense to lighten atmosphere.. Whole room was dark.. Then we collabrated with my class.. We make 1 extra slide at the end saying "happy birthday brian"! Then he was shocked..

Sang bday songs and ate cake.. Was fun...! =] cHeeRs... Btw, did jess disappear? Her blog is so not updated..! Jess update when u see this.. bishz..!

As i hear this song on my blog, I am thinking of ben right now.. ... I will be watching you from above.. Just think of me & I'll be there..

hello guys.. I'm at the atrium now.. Adding the final touch to my project.. Yest was stress stress stress.. I dont know if I will manage to pass the paper but i know i did my best.. Saw benedict koh b4 the paper and he wished me gd luck for failing the paper, what an ******! hahaha..! dun let me see him again ahbo..... *wu ying jiao....!!*

Hmm, yest ben call me and we had a really nice talk.. It uplifted my soul and I felt so so so damn happy.. Hehe! Yesterday was doing the powerpoint until the wee hours.. So quite tired now.. Beauty sleep on my bed i think, coz when I woke up in the morning, the 1st one I saw was her.. So cutie cutie..!

Oh ya, i wanted to tell ur bt my dog, that stupid rosy.. Ur know horz, I was sitting in the living room watching tv and studying at the same time mahx, then i was looking down onto my notes and then out of the corner of my eye, I saw rosy sitting and looking at me.. Then I was like " how come she today so guai? " Then I reached out, wanting to brush her hair then my hand knocked against a plastic container.. It was empty!

That was her drink bowl! Then she use her mouth and take it and let me see its empty, ask me refill drink for her.. Then my mum ask me go the kitchen there see got water on the floor anot, then indeed got lor.. Then my mum said rosy always pour away the last bit of the water coz her tongue cnt reach it anymore, so she pour away ask us refill new one up to the brim for her.. Clever dog... But how come she gong gong never come to me when I call her name? Idiotically adorable..

been studying and .... but it was on off on off type.. Still left 1 more chpt to go.. Looks like everyone is cursing my stats tutor, ans she gave was wrong and no one understood what she taught. Terrible. Suay got this biatch as our tutor. *shakes head*

I wonder if brunei is raining too.. Waiting for Ms Congeniality to show on TV! Such a farni show although I didnt manage to catch that movie. Saw the ad on the tv. When models say they hope for world peace, everyone rejoice. True enough, if you manage to keep a lookout on the answer those models gave, i bet 90% of them hoped for world peace. I wonder if it's true or just a routine answer. They know it best.

I miss going out with my friends, i miss sec sch life, I miss the past, I miss you, I miss I miss I miss..... I must treasure every moment I have now, cherish and make the best use out of everything, because I dunwan myself to regret when I look back in the future.. Hey, anyone want to go out on wed or thurs like tt? After my bstats test on Mon, I gotta rush for my project presentation on tues. And there there, I can finally say with a a smirk that almost everythin is done. Last proj is on tues. except 1 more test and 4 more exams.

Rejoice rejoice rejoice.. May the day of rejoice come.. Btw, you all havent reach 18 right? I wanna watch "passion of the christ"! My classmates whom are christians are all filling me in about it until I wanna watch also..! Hehe!

time out! taking a short break from my studying.. Been studying non stop.. I think I did quite alot of stats qns.. but some areas still not yet as familiar, but as long as I can pass, who cares? Still have 4 more chpts to go.. wish me luck u guys..

Ben's in brunei now, he called me just now.. yeah! but only for bt a min, coz quite expensive but that 1 min is enough to satisfy me.. Still have 16 days to go b4 he's back.. It's gonna be fast.. Yeah real fast.. No mosquitos shall bite him, no ants shall touch him! *puts a anti gaga spell on him* ok, it's done..!

ho ho ho! I go continue my study le.. Let's see if I can hang on till 5am.. That's my limit.. Hmm...

these few days have been a period of complete disaster. can't imagine I was studying whereever I go.. I have been thinking, I'm one who is slower in learning. Not sure if it's because my mum gave birth to me in her 30's, which was considered quite late. Cos my bro and I quite slow in grasping the whole content particularly in studies.

But I'm good in memorisin, can say so. I take a longer time to study than anyone else in my class. I think. I take a longer time to learn the whole idea about belaying and stuffs. But no matter what, I am willing to learn and I will not give up!

Going for LMS rehearsal soon. Ok gosh. I feel I'm one busy woman these days. My sats, sun, mon and tues are all packed. But with the right reasons. Not for shopping purposes or whatsoever. Tests tests test, exams exams exams, projects projects projects, these few words can practically describe the life of a polytechnic student. Jessie, hope you can appeal successfully to NP then we can "suffer" and "complain" together le. =]