I woke up, sub-conciously thinking i was still with him. But then slowly i realised, what had happened yesterday and the week before. It has left a deep impact on me.

I thought of all the times. He brought me to eat pizza, NYDC for my birthday, held my hand, hug me, kiss me. But what am i supposed to do now? I'm all alone in my journey.

I was very serious in this relationship. But now i am crushed. Who wouldn't?

My mum told me not to think too much. But who will ever understand what i'm feeling? It's such a terrible feeling. I don't want to think about it yet it keeps coming to my mind every minute.

Today is the first day of our break up.

I can't get to sleep anymore.

Cousin, i understood how u felt now when you broke up too. You must have a more worse than me. But i know time will heal everything. But i wished time will just pass quickly.

Sometimes i jus wish i din exist at all.

To Ben : Don't be stressed le yeh? No one's blaming you. It's our own decision.

Later hafta go to meet Grace and Siew Teng to study at causeway. And then meet my cousin at holland v for dinner and kopi. Long time nv see her le.

Causeway, the place where we always walked around and shopped,ate long john a week or 2 before there, watch movies.

Just fcuking stop thinking will YOU CINDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just read Jialing's blog. I realise i really am not alone. I guess a lot of people r going through relationship problems right now. I don't know why. This is just a bad year. A bad month. A bad timing. A bad moment. Gurl, you don't be so sad too okie? I'm trying to get up on my feet now. But i guess memories will always be there to haunt me. I know you're happier now. I'm happy for u. From the bottom of my heart. Thanks for listening to my sorrows. Thanks for sharing and trying to lift me up.

I realise there are a lot of friends trying very very very hard to encourage me and lift me up. Thank you all. You're all my closest friends. Including my cousin, pekhar, jialing, jean, grace, regina, siew teng, chongling & a few more others.
I'm trying and still trying. Gimme more time.

My exam starts on this saturday. And luckily for me, i finished 3 modules of studies. I mean, read through and trying to understand + abit of memorising. Still left business law and financial management which is full of cals. OMG!

Haix, the memories r starting again. What the fcuk. I wan to be gawd damn happy la. Leave me alone..

I woke up, sub-conciously thinking i was still with him. But then slowly i realised, what had happened yesterday and the week before. It has left a deep impact on me.

I thought of all the times. He brought me to eat pizza, NYDC for my birthday, held my hand, hug me, kiss me. But what am i supposed to do now? I'm all alone in my journey.

I was very serious in this relationship. But now i am crushed. Who wouldn't?

My mum told me not to think too much. But who will ever understand what i'm feeling? It's such a terrible feeling. I don't want to think about it yet it keeps coming to my mind every minute.

Today is the first day of our break up.

I can't get to sleep anymore.

Cousin, i understood how u felt now when you broke up too. You must have a more worse than me. But i know time will heal everything. But i wished time will just pass quickly.

Sometimes i jus wish i din exist at all.

To Ben : Don't be stressed le yeh? No one's blaming you. It's our own decision.

Later hafta go to meet Grace and Siew Teng to study at causeway. And then meet my cousin at holland v for dinner and kopi. Long time nv see her le.

Causeway, the place where we always walked around and shopped,ate long john a week or 2 before there, watch movies.

Just fcuking stop thinking will YOU CINDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just read Jialing's blog. I realise i really am not alone. I guess a lot of people r going through relationship problems right now. I don't know why. This is just a bad year. A bad month. A bad timing. A bad moment. Gurl, you don't be so sad too okie? I'm trying to get up on my feet now. But i guess memories will always be there to haunt me. I know you're happier now. I'm happy for u. From the bottom of my heart. Thanks for listening to my sorrows. Thanks for sharing and trying to lift me up.

I realise there are a lot of friends trying very very very hard to encourage me and lift me up. Thank you all. You're all my closest friends. Including my cousin, pekhar, jialing, jean, grace, regina, siew teng, chongling & a few more others.
I'm trying and still trying. Gimme more time.

My exam starts on this saturday. And luckily for me, i finished 3 modules of studies. I mean, read through and trying to understand + abit of memorising. Still left business law and financial management which is full of cals. OMG!

Haix, the memories r starting again. What the fcuk. I wan to be gawd damn happy la. Leave me alone..